i think i agree with your conclusion yeah. I don't really see it as much of a big deal or point of analysis, but this is Rps Land soooo you can kinda stretch it to mean anything which. We should do.

i think it's really really easy to account for his phone addiction if we view his phone usage as a way to tune out everything around him. i've noticed this a lot but he's always the quickest to shut down, or always the one person missing in their videos, probably because his energy seems to get depleted the quickest. phone usage is just an easy way to Mildly Dissociate in a semi-socially-acceptable way in public, and it's also the easiest way to let the other members know to Leave him the Fuck Alone whenever he gets in those kinds of moods. which is also really funny because it's also the most obvious indicator that something is Clearly Wrong with him and that he has a terrible habit of isolating himself from the other members. i really really like bitchy moody james so this is a lowkey biased perception but idrgaf. Anyways. i should look at more compilations on tiktok... thank you for letting me know Heart

AGGHHHHHHH good lord he is so depressed man. I know this dude has a thousand playlists dedicated to specific niche vibes and environments and i Know he has a good Three playlists for sad songs. i Know it. i'm certain martin has several songs he wrote when he was extremely suicidal (blue lips included) and i'm just Waiting for them to be released. he's so anxious and self-conscious and i think it's so awesome how Big and Tall he is because it never allows him the chance to hide whatsoever. God.

I think a LOT a lot about how martin has repeatedly talked about james changing his outlook on music and also on life in general. it drives me crazy. I don't think james necessarily brought him out of his depression because that's stupid and ridiculous (and martin is still depressed lmfao), but i think he feels indebted towards him sometimes because of how Stable yet also Bright james' presence is in his life. The way he described james as Red. Himself as Yellow. How james neutralized him to Orange. How martin described orange as his favorite color because of the nostalgia and the memories it evokes. they make me so fucking emotional man i can't i fucking can't.

YEAH. Yeah. i think he really really reaaally just needs an older man to put him in his place. i oscillate between him wanting to be taken care of vs. wanting to get fucked real hard and nasty by someone older who can make his mind go fuzzy and blank, who can make him feel good in the way he's used to, which is something he doesn't really trust the younger members to do for him. I think he really really likes hyungs man. I think he would be so much more willing to let go if he had one again because at his core, he's just searching for what he Feels like is the right person to submit to. and his whole life, that's always been someone older than him, who knows more than him, someone who can give him instructions without him feeling Off about it.

i also think he would be very easy to take advantage of because of his natural proclivity for older men (aka his painfully obvious and unfilfilled need to be taken care of). but i want to stew on that concept for a bit longer. Save it for smth else.

i think they are very very very cute. thinking about how soft they are with one another makes me feel a little bit crazy. I didn't even catch the vulnerability aspect of james' message to him, but now that you point it out.... Yeah. the amount of comfort james gets from seonghyeon and vice versa is kinda immeasurable, and i think they both take care of each other in ways which they both need -- james more obviously, sort of as a show to prove himself as the mathyung, while for seonghyeon it's more quiet and natural and allows him to retain that "hyung" role he's always been accustomed to back at home. there's this one clip of seonghyeon constantly looking over at james' work during the TNT coke-mentos video, and i find it very cute. Man.

i also think the princess thing is very cute. i unfortunately do not feel anything weird or perverted about it because i view it more as a term of endearment that doesn't really go into anything sexual for james, but that's just me. Don't let my views affect yours. my conception of james is that he believes he has zero attraction to the younger members because that would be Strange and Weird, and he views them as children/younger siblings the way most ppl do in reaction to 3-4 yr age gaps. it's why he rarely engages in fanservice or anything affectionate with them, in addition to his Other Issues. but i think it's really interesting how much he dotes on seonghyeon in particular. i think he finds him really really cute in a way that, if you capture it at the right angle, can border on being Weird, except he himself isn't aware of that. Which is Delicious. i like the idea of seonghyeon relishing in the special treatment he gets while feeling a bit sad knowing that james means nothing of it. Thoroughly enjoying the moments when james opens up to him and only him, and subconsciously using that to slowly get more and more touchy over the years. i can easily see him offering himself to james if he catches him at a Really Bad Time, and james kinda nodding (to his own surprise) and letting seonghyeon take care of him.

if it wasn't obvious, i HEAVILY fw the trope of the older guy being in denial of/feeling absolutely zero attraction to the younger guy (marjames for the former, jjujami for the latter). for jamseongz, i can kind of see a mix. it's also because i think james is into older guys, but that's just my hypothesis.

sean.... precious unassuming cutieful sean.... sean being sweet and gentle as he's prepping james, looking earnestly into his eyes and being unabashedly honest about his adoration for him. and to james, that is ten times more overwhelming than the fingers just shy of his prostate but it's okay because it's Seonghyeon and he knows he's going to be taken care of, fucked nice and slow like nobody else has done before. Sigh.

i think sean is such a soft dom. i cannot imagine him being mean, i think he's way too concerned for others in a way that he just Can't do it. it's different from martin who i can kind of see (which really means i Firmly Believe) having some Repressed Urges that are socially unacceptable, hence his overwhelming anxiety over everything, but seonghyeon is genuinely just a really sweet kid. he's a Good Dude. and i think that's something james is really attracted to as well because it makes it really really easy for him to just Exist around seonghyeon as himself. i know i don't tweet about them a lot but they are very very cute to me, very underrated.

i'm salivating over this video bro holy fuck. Why is he doing that. Whore. i think if martin saw this he'd genuinely combust. You can do it. I believe in you martin. Put that big body of yours to use and bully him. If you're scared of the consequences, there are other means available too. Drug him maybe, so that he's pliant. Feed your dick to his lips and force him to look up at you with those dazed eyes. Cum on his face too, since he can't do anything about it.

this is very distantly related, but it's really really interesting because i think martin juhoon and james all have a Thing for control. james can't relinquish control for trauma-related reasons, martin has instances where he wants to relinquish it but also doesn't due to his anxiety, and juhoon's default state is a Cool sort of self-control over the years growing up as a kid constantly exposed to the entertainment industry from model -> idol. i think to juhoon it comes more naturally, it's kind of what he's always been like and he isn't comfortable with anything else after all these years (plus he's generally very laidback and calm) while james kind of forces it because he's terrified of remembering just how powerless he is, which is Very amusing to me. also because james is more comfortable being coddled and taken care of from his time in TA (i think this stems from his childhood too, actually) while juhoon doesn't really share that experience.

martin is more similar to james in that he Does want to be taken care of, likely due to the stress of playing leader all the time. he comes off as someone who Needs control -- he Needs to be stable and calm and collected or else he thinks everything will fall apart (Also similar to james awwwwwww), and that's also why i think it's very interesting to explore the side of him that enjoys it, particularly in his relations with everyone else. i think he really really Really likes taking care of others, gets a Massive ego boost from being relied on and seen as dependable (it's why he likes being around keonho so much) and this is especially amplified with james because of how distant he is from everyone else. and if you just push that concept a little bit, put him in the right situations, it's really really easy to twist that care into something more heavy, especially because of his tendency to accidentally do Too much when he lets his mind drift off. Something something james depending on martin emotionally for the first time and martin wanting to see him tear up again and again afterwards. Not because he's a pervert Nooooo nono absolutely not, don't get him wrong, he's not like that, he's not a Sick Freak like that he could Never feel that way about his hyung. he just likes that he's confiding in him, trusting him, likes when james gets vulnerable, sensitive, gets all quiet and pliant and soft just for him, only him. and really, is that so bad?