ahh thank you so so so so much!!! it’s amazing that people look forward to the things i write, i am grateful for that Beyond Words but i simply never know when i’m going to update. so answering “i don’t know” every time does get a little repetitive!!! it doesn’t stress me out bc i’m very solid in knowing Why i write, and it’s never To Share. i write because i enjoy it and it helps me process and then i maybe share it if i feel like it. i very rarely Force myself to do anything fic/writing related and i think that’s one of the big reasons why people think my fics are fun+heartfelt. i have fun writing them and i write the feelings i want to express in that moment!!! i have no idea how long things will take bc i follow my whims & i never give myself deadlines

i think that is also why i also literally never get writers block!!! (knock on wood). i don’t think i’ve gone a single day in the last 2ish years without writing at least a couple sentences in my notes app. when i’m really busy i go to the bathroom to write a little on my phone to destress like a nic addict going to hit their vape. i never stress about estimating a timeline bc i just don’t care at all even a little bit. the final product is at the bottom of my list of priorities when i’m writing fic. i write because i love the act of writing!

sorry for the essay of an answer i always do this. i cannot explain how much i appreciate you saying this, thank you ♡♡♡♡

oh no this is not offensive at all!!! i've been going through a lot with my sexuality actually hahaha. i identified as a lesbian for much of my life because well i was only ever attracted to women i never experienced attraction to men at all. so you can probably see why i came to that conclusion. but i've also never just been attracted to random people, i REALLY require Feelings and connection to experience any sort of physical attraction whatsoever. i emotionally connect with women very easily, so i have found myself attracted to women. men... not so much. but as i was thinking about like what fuels me to be romantically interested in or attracted to someone i realized that it really could be anyone, it just had historically always been women. that was like earlier this year. i basically decided it wasn't Impossible for me to be attracted to men, just improbable.

so i no longer identify as a lesbian, or any label really. i don't identify with bisexual or demisexual or pansexual or anything, not because they're technically inaccurate, just because they don’t Feel right and it ultimately does not matter to me personally. i’m comfortable with ‘queer.’ it was definitely a struggle and a crisis for a second because I was so solid in my identity as a lesbian for so long, but alas. I am always learning new things about myself and have accepted that for me personally the label doesn’t make any real difference on my sense of self or my life.

so that has been my journey hahahaha you didn’t ask for an essay but i love to share. thank you for asking!

Oh this is an awesome question thank you for asking!!! I don’t think I’ve talked about this much recently and oh man I love to talk this is going to be an essay. But I started writing no attachments over three years ago, and at the time I was trying to process my feelings of being socially isolated, especially because of my autism and struggles with mental health. Jisung’s character was a vessel for me to process those feelings specifically, and well. I processed it. I don’t relate to him very much anymore. The ways he’s overcoming those struggles are different than the way I have overcome them, his autism presents differently, he leads with a very different attitude than I do, and these days we just don’t have much in common hahaha. I’m extremely confident, I make friends everywhere I go, and I really do not struggle to understand people at all.

However. I am Minho, Minho is me. It is impossible for me to ever grow out of relating to Minho. I chose to write from Jisung’s perspective because I needed distance from my own. I didn’t hold a lot of compassion for myself and my circumstances, just as Jisung does not hold a lot of compassion for Minho and his circumstances (as of now), and struggles to understand why Minho is putting himself in this position. I started to write no attachments right as I was deciding to choose my own life instead of the one I was told I would need to have, and I wanted to write something that reflected that process. Two people negotiating what they will do with less than ideal circumstances, just as I was negotiating with myself.

But anyway I am SO back my life is going suppperrrrr well these days so now no attachments Minho’s life will get to reflect that too. i couldn’t really picture a happy ending for him where he feels actually free & loved unconditionally & seen, because jisung most certainly does not see him or love him unconditionally (yet). I couldn’t take on that perspective because I kind of found the idea of it impossible. like how can someone truly unconditionally love Minho (me) with all of his (my) quirks and crazy circumstances. But anyway I picked up a ********** gym bro boyfriend whose favorite flowers are daisies and he makes me feel very loved & seen so we’re so up. Everyone say thank you ockleibibf. I did kind of put him through some stuff to get here. You can imagine what it was

Thank you sooo much for asking!!!

MANNNN NOTHINGGGG!!! well thats not true. i am working mostly on my fandom trumps hate fics, there is a hyunibini and a minsung and i am SUPER excited about them, and then i am picking away at no attachments. i'm really trying to find a solid life/writing balance right now, i wrote over one million words in three years and i'm very resistant to taking a break but the way i was doing things was unsustainable and i wasn't very present in my own life... i'm writing very little these days but i am waiting for things to balance back out naturally as i become more present in my own life and adjust my process. very very weird time for me, totally re-evaluating my relationship to my writing... you literally did not ask this hahahahaha but that's what i've been doing!!! thanku so much

i use a software called scrivener!!! it is life changing for me because i have insanely long projects that require LOTS of organization, and i never write chronologically so it helps keep that organized too. it is an investment tho it costs $60, but its a one time payment which is amazing in the age of subscriptions. in my opinion it is very worth it if you're doing long projects, not sure if it would be worth it if you're doing shorter works or you always write chronologically.

i could literally talk about scrivener for DAYS i am obsessed with it. if you want to know how i use the different features (bc there are one million of them, people say there is a learning curve) plz let me know i love to yap

YES OH MY GOD YES this was my main issue in picking up the long game again. I feel very Seen rn. I felt like I just couldn’t connect with the characters, and also I straight up forgot where the plot was going like manic me had a Vision that I no longer hold. but I gave myself some distance from it, and I feel like I’m getting back into it again!!! I feel like I kind of held the idea that I had to get into the long game Mindset to finish it, and obviously that is a mindset I never hope to enter again LOL so that really held me back. I’m almost looking at it as a new project now, I’m trying to approach it with new eyes and focus on making writing it an enjoyable experience for Current me, rather than a quest to fulfill Manic me’s vision.

Idk if you were asking for advice but I have some to give, take it or leave it: let it sit. It’ll always be there. If it feels charged and hard to approach right now, you just don’t have to. Start other projects and know that this one is tucked away, for whenever you’re ready to approach it again. these are hobbies, they’re meant to bring us joy and comfort, and there is no rush to pick it back up again. Even if it sits for ever, that project served a purpose for you at one point and it’s okay if you never get a final product!

That being said, you can give yourself permission to never finish while still maintaining the goal that you will, and working on your general stability will very likely help you to achieve that goal. I think I am able to approach the long game again bc I feel very tethered in my current reality, which was NOOOTTTT the case before. I am very grounded in the fact that my circumstances are different, and I’m approaching it in a new light, so the project itself doesn’t feel so charged anymore. I’m having fun with it again! It just took a lot of time & grounding to get there. I love to live my life slowly, what’s the rush? heheh

Good luck!!! You have literally your whole life to loop back to this, and so many other creative endeavors to start in the meantime. If you have any hoodie updates plz send them my way, I’ll keep my alterspring open forever ♡ LOL

Ahhh thank you so much!!! I think it probably feels realistic bc the inspiration for Everything in these fics is just my own life and emotions. i’ve had sooooooo much back and forth with the way I dress myself and present, its always been a real struggle for me. I’m big & tall, huge feet broad shoulders NEVER been skinny etc, so I very much held this belief that I was not pretty or dainty enough to be femme, and when I tried it was just embarrassing. and then when I was younger I was in a space where I was shoved into this very traditionally feminine, submissive, doll-like look & narrative, so I couldn’t enjoy the cute pretty things I liked without feeling like I was continuing to act out this fantasy that was forced upon me.

I’m just twisting and projecting this on jisung hahahaha, its his experience of being a queer asian man with this deep-seated resentment and shame of being viewed as submissive/feminine, while also resonating with more feminine styles, while also not feeling “worthy” of presenting more femininely or confident enough to put effort into his presentation. My friends definitely made me feel so much more confident in presenting how I want to present without all the noise, so I’m giving that to Jisung in hyunlix! LOL

I’m so happy you think it’s fun!!! I love these characters dearly, they have made me much kinder to myself hahaha. Thank you so so so much!!!