ahh thank you so so so so much!!! it’s amazing that people look forward to the things i write, i am grateful for that Beyond Words but i simply never know when i’m going to update. so answering “i don’t know” every time does get a little repetitive!!! it doesn’t stress me out bc i’m very solid in knowing Why i write, and it’s never To Share. i write because i enjoy it and it helps me process and then i maybe share it if i feel like it. i very rarely Force myself to do anything fic/writing related and i think that’s one of the big reasons why people think my fics are fun+heartfelt. i have fun writing them and i write the feelings i want to express in that moment!!! i have no idea how long things will take bc i follow my whims & i never give myself deadlines

i think that is also why i also literally never get writers block!!! (knock on wood). i don’t think i’ve gone a single day in the last 2ish years without writing at least a couple sentences in my notes app. when i’m really busy i go to the bathroom to write a little on my phone to destress like a nic addict going to hit their vape. i never stress about estimating a timeline bc i just don’t care at all even a little bit. the final product is at the bottom of my list of priorities when i’m writing fic. i write because i love the act of writing!

sorry for the essay of an answer i always do this. i cannot explain how much i appreciate you saying this, thank you ♡♡♡♡

YES OH MY GOD YES this was my main issue in picking up the long game again. I feel very Seen rn. I felt like I just couldn’t connect with the characters, and also I straight up forgot where the plot was going like manic me had a Vision that I no longer hold. but I gave myself some distance from it, and I feel like I’m getting back into it again!!! I feel like I kind of held the idea that I had to get into the long game Mindset to finish it, and obviously that is a mindset I never hope to enter again LOL so that really held me back. I’m almost looking at it as a new project now, I’m trying to approach it with new eyes and focus on making writing it an enjoyable experience for Current me, rather than a quest to fulfill Manic me’s vision.

Idk if you were asking for advice but I have some to give, take it or leave it: let it sit. It’ll always be there. If it feels charged and hard to approach right now, you just don’t have to. Start other projects and know that this one is tucked away, for whenever you’re ready to approach it again. these are hobbies, they’re meant to bring us joy and comfort, and there is no rush to pick it back up again. Even if it sits for ever, that project served a purpose for you at one point and it’s okay if you never get a final product!

That being said, you can give yourself permission to never finish while still maintaining the goal that you will, and working on your general stability will very likely help you to achieve that goal. I think I am able to approach the long game again bc I feel very tethered in my current reality, which was NOOOTTTT the case before. I am very grounded in the fact that my circumstances are different, and I’m approaching it in a new light, so the project itself doesn’t feel so charged anymore. I’m having fun with it again! It just took a lot of time & grounding to get there. I love to live my life slowly, what’s the rush? heheh

Good luck!!! You have literally your whole life to loop back to this, and so many other creative endeavors to start in the meantime. If you have any hoodie updates plz send them my way, I’ll keep my alterspring open forever ♡ LOL

Ahhh thank you so much!!! I think it probably feels realistic bc the inspiration for Everything in these fics is just my own life and emotions. i’ve had sooooooo much back and forth with the way I dress myself and present, its always been a real struggle for me. I’m big & tall, huge feet broad shoulders NEVER been skinny etc, so I very much held this belief that I was not pretty or dainty enough to be femme, and when I tried it was just embarrassing. and then when I was younger I was in a space where I was shoved into this very traditionally feminine, submissive, doll-like look & narrative, so I couldn’t enjoy the cute pretty things I liked without feeling like I was continuing to act out this fantasy that was forced upon me.

I’m just twisting and projecting this on jisung hahahaha, its his experience of being a queer asian man with this deep-seated resentment and shame of being viewed as submissive/feminine, while also resonating with more feminine styles, while also not feeling “worthy” of presenting more femininely or confident enough to put effort into his presentation. My friends definitely made me feel so much more confident in presenting how I want to present without all the noise, so I’m giving that to Jisung in hyunlix! LOL

I’m so happy you think it’s fun!!! I love these characters dearly, they have made me much kinder to myself hahaha. Thank you so so so much!!!

oh my god. so it started very unserious i just thought of dilf minho age gap minsung. and then i was like alright who is his son. jeongin would be good. omg what if jeongin was his YOUNG ADULT son that'd be so awkward. i love sitting in awkward and uncomfortable and weird. then when i thought about minho/jeongin father/son dynamic i pictured minho distinctly as an Asian Dad with Asian Dad love languages like he just couldn't be any other way to me. but then as i started thinking about the minsung dynamic, minho is outwardly touchy affectionate with jisung and def babies him so i was like hmm… how would that contrast make jeongin feel…. Bad, probably. So i needed to put them in a pressure cooker somehow, and i decided to make it a chamber piece lol and trap them on a vacation. I’ve had multiple pivotal life changing conversations w my own dad on family vacations HAHAHA so the inspo def came from that.

i'm honestly REALLYYYYYYYY not proud of the way its written i don’t think its well written at all, i'm messing with it to make it original fiction and i think its improving a lot! Also working on a jisung pov spinoff fic hehehe for FTH. thanku sooo much for asking i love talking about this!!!

BRO ASKING ME ABOUT SITCOMS IS A DANGEROUS GAME…….. SORRY IN ADVANCE FOR THIS ESSAY.

my absolute favorite of all time was community, no competition. My ship that i was insane about before hyunibini was trobed. I also loved mythic quest, my Big Huge project before legoverse was a veryyy lore heavy community/mythic quest crossover fic that was super super super meticulous to canon.

My #2 fave of all time was new girl, and i love it for the same reasons i loved community—the characters are SO strong and super bizarre, the comedy gets absurdddd and unhinged but there’s still so much heart.

My main sitcom hot take is i Only like single-camera sitcoms. I dabbled in multi-cam but I rarely find them funny and single-cam is much better for the purpose of Writing Inspiration since its a lot tighter and ofc i don’t have a laugh track to rely on or an audience to play off of. Also the cinematic set up with closer framing really helps me bc 1) it lets me see the actors’ more subtle expressions, which helps me study them to describe in my writing and 2) it enables the actors to have a Grounded and Realistic performance rather than the more theatrical/exaggerated performances that come w multi-cam’s limited movement, which inspires my more Grounded and Realistic writing. The 4-sided sets make me feel more In The Room than the 3-sided stage set up, which i think helps me make my writing more immersive, like you’re with my characters instead of watching them from an audience.

as a single-camera lover my hottest take is probably that i do not like the office at all i dont think its funny even a little bit. Mythic quest is 10x more funny as a workplace sitcom imo… And this is a community lover specific hot take but i think season 4 is funny idgaf. It’s obv not up to par w 1 & 2 and i will admit that i think its funny HUGELY because i was already so invested in the characters but also I think the people who are constantly riding dan harmons dick exaggerate the difference.

That got niche. If you read this thanku. & thank you anon for asking and giving me an excuse to rant about this mwah

out of the fics that i have posted, i am BY FAR the most proud of 'mosaics.' it's rlly short and not really as much about hyunibini as it is about hyunjin and his parents hahaha but i love it so so so much. family dynamics are my favorite thing to write. i'll link it in the replies if you'd like to read it heheh

my fic that i am most proud of out of all of the ones i've ever written is one where hyunjin is a single dad. it is VERYYYYY lore heavy and i really love my OCs, its about hyunibini but its mostly about raising a child with complex trauma when hyunjin has complex trauma himself, and navigating what happens as his son no longer needs the same level of support as he did when he was younger, starts becoming more of his own individual and leaves hyunjin with the space to start finding his Own identity & life again. its them negotiating that together as their relationship changes and hyunjin finds this Romance he's always wanted but never felt like he had the space to pursue. also very found family they go to this church (where they meet changbin) thats really chaotic and more about community building than religion so its a SUPER big ensemble cast with lots of interwoven stories and spin-offs and lore... i've been working on it for two years. i love it so much. excited to share

thanku sooo much for asking!!!