anon · 1mo
Do you have a hard time with continuing to write tlg because of the circumstances/altered mental state you started it in? (I hope this isnt invasive to ask. Im asking because i have a 60+ft long knitted cord i made while having an episode and an having difficulty getting myself to continue to make it into the hoodie i had created a series of diagrams on how to assemble)
YES OH MY GOD YES this was my main issue in picking up the long game again. I feel very Seen rn. I felt like I just couldn’t connect with the characters, and also I straight up forgot where the plot was going like manic me had a Vision that I no longer hold. but I gave myself some distance from it, and I feel like I’m getting back into it again!!! I feel like I kind of held the idea that I had to get into the long game Mindset to finish it, and obviously that is a mindset I never hope to enter again LOL so that really held me back. I’m almost looking at it as a new project now, I’m trying to approach it with new eyes and focus on making writing it an enjoyable experience for Current me, rather than a quest to fulfill Manic me’s vision.
Idk if you were asking for advice but I have some to give, take it or leave it: let it sit. It’ll always be there. If it feels charged and hard to approach right now, you just don’t have to. Start other projects and know that this one is tucked away, for whenever you’re ready to approach it again. these are hobbies, they’re meant to bring us joy and comfort, and there is no rush to pick it back up again. Even if it sits for ever, that project served a purpose for you at one point and it’s okay if you never get a final product!
That being said, you can give yourself permission to never finish while still maintaining the goal that you will, and working on your general stability will very likely help you to achieve that goal. I think I am able to approach the long game again bc I feel very tethered in my current reality, which was NOOOTTTT the case before. I am very grounded in the fact that my circumstances are different, and I’m approaching it in a new light, so the project itself doesn’t feel so charged anymore. I’m having fun with it again! It just took a lot of time & grounding to get there. I love to live my life slowly, what’s the rush? heheh
Good luck!!! You have literally your whole life to loop back to this, and so many other creative endeavors to start in the meantime. If you have any hoodie updates plz send them my way, I’ll keep my alterspring open forever ♡ LOL
