Watching the starlings as Autumn draws in。
as i send this its officially may 13th in my timezone! happy birthday to me im 18 now
i was left behind.... all this torture will unwind.... <= lyrics
i have insomnia demons RANDOM QUESTION TIME!!! if you had to pick one thinf to do for the rest of your life sisyphus style what would it be (and why?)
also: as it is officially may 6th
Can you believe it guys? Birthday, just a week away. Birthday is in a week! Woohoo! I am so happy about this information. Birthday! Just a week away, oh wow. Can you believe it? Birthday! Just in a week! It got here so fast! Birthday! Just a week away!
Rodya birthday soon... That's crazy... anyway, Sisyphus style? Probably something creative (drawing or writing?) or pursuing knowledge
hey lilman
hi rodya nii waves waves waves
꒰ঌ [⑅] ᴗ`˶) ⠀ QoTD⠀ –⠀ May 6
〜 What is something/someone that makes you very happy? A character, a thing, a person, a place, et cetera...
Chiluc, Diluc, NOT Childe... And uh my partners!
may 5 '26
hello all,
i'm not sure how to ask this in the sort of Genuine and Beautiful way i intend to. so we ball. just try interpreting this in some sort of better-worded....sense....okay?
are you a morning person? not like, do you particularly ENJOY waking up in the morning, but you know....which do you think feels nicer? to be up before everyone, or to be the last one asleep? i don't knowww....
I like both. I like sleeping later than everyone else and waking up before everyone else. I just like the quiet solitude it brings. It's not alone or loneliness, but knowing that others are asleep and you're awake just brings a calming feeling to me.
may 4 '26
hello all,
are you a domestic person? is there someone in your life you're domestic With? assuming you have some sort of...plans for your future—are Those domestic? maybe you just need time...the right place, the right person(?)...?
NOTE
it's occurred to me that some people do not know what "domestic" means! well, like most words, it can mean a lot. but, contextually, i'm asking about if you are a "homey" person; if you enjoy the pleasures that come with having/being in a home; etc etc.
I have plenty of dreams for domesticity, but I wouldn't consider myself a domestic person. I can do domestic things, I can live in a place that is inherently like that, but as a person, not really? I would love to live a homey and warm life with my partners, but maybe it's because of the inner turmoil I still struggle with that I can't perceive my self as domestic. I think I need the right direction to go to for my self. Maybe.
apr. 28 '26
how important is your language to you? not just, but your vocabulary? do you feel like you use your language well (not in some sense of honouring it, per se, but to express yourself)?
It's quite important to me. It's a reflection of myself in a way, my habits, what I think about in day to day life. Sometimes I type or talk stupid, meme everything I say, or I get very wordy and lengthy like this right now. I like to think this duality in my speech represents me as a person too. I've been told I'm quite funny but at the same time I'm quite intelligent (I am not glazing myself, I keep getting told this throughout my life), and I think my speech also expresses how those two connect, or maybe I'm just connecting nonexistent dots. Either way, I like the way that I speak, even if it turns to nonsense to me sometimes.
apr. 30 '26
hello all,
in what way do you need others?
i ask this way 'cuz i am of the opinion that You DO need people—that everyone does. but many don't agree, in theory and practice. err, "need"—to live your best life, i think.
do you prefer being around people? thinking of others? how do you view others, in relation to yourself; can you understand them, as a familiar? or. maybe you'd prefer not to think about them at all? some people have better things to worry about, i suppose.
I find myself having a very complicated perception of myself in relation to others who I perceive are a part of larger human society. I don't perceive myself as belonging among humans (whether because nonhumanity, neurodivergence, or my other life experiences? A mix of them?) so connection has always been a bit difficult and taxing, kind of a drag to do at times.
However, I do need people, I've found that not being able to talk to people for an extended period of time kind of drives me into a spiral! To my misfortune, I do need companionship and people to somehow connect to, as much as I dread the process and how it drains me. I need some semblance of belonging to at least some people; I don't particularly enjoy not belonging among human beings. I need people in the way that I need a home, a shelter. Some shelters aren't as good as others, but sometimes you need a break on your journey.
⠀꒰ question ꒱⠀How good would you say you are at comforting others❔⠀Would you say you're better or worse at it now than in the past?⠀Are you comfortable with people reaching out to comfort you?
I wouldn't say I'm really good at comforting specifically. I'm good at listening and giving my own opinion than really trying to soothe someone's distress. My form of comfort is usually reassurance and stating the facts to like de-escalate things? I'm not sure if it counts. I think I used to be way worse at comforting in the past though, as I usually was emotionally unavailable and was always on edge. I am happy if people come to me for comfort and I try my best, but I usually prefer to act as a consultant than anything.
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