kharon and voyager have a funny feeling relationship because while theyre depicted as a trio with x, there’s less of a “tug” between kharon and the other two because of /well besides the fact that the other two in question live together) kharon isolating themself a lot and trying to escape things that bothers them too much or makes them feel too anxious/About to think about this thing so hard . Voyager included . (hence Kharon doesn’t know whether Voyager considers them a friend or not. they feel bad about this but perceives it as necessary to protect themself and in turn, her as well without having to do so much)

and to note that also they have met each other as ~teenagers , but voyager can barely remember such a thing due to her amnesia / But kharon very well remembers the interactions they have in their life. Like seeing someone change so drastically to an unnerving level but you can’t do anything about it , also because then it’s going to disclose other (unnamed) qualms kharon has about voyager, like the “i cannot shake off the feeling that she knows precisely what i did” in another inquiry i answered - whereas Voyager is generally, perhaps not that oblivious as she seems, but it never really consumes her mind as much as it does for Kharon. And never questions it really. She’s in her own throes of an existential crisis, yet still noticed how Kharon shies away from any further interaction compared to other people.

Kharon has kept so much secrets from her too they’re practically on the verge of just throwing it all up ;, but they’re good at that sort of thing, aren’t they?
(dont ask me about what happens in a later arc) /
Voyager feels like she can never really approach Kharon properly because Kharon then mysteriously can never be found every time it occurs to her. And what she does in response is, again, not question it, believing it’s not her business despite the fact that she is the. business. She is concerned for sure but she doesn’t feel like it’s her place to pry into it. so much tension It will suffocate the both of them until they can no longer handle it. It’s like I’m seeing a different person compared to the real you…

In another way, I can sum it up like when you become friends with someone and they invite another friend over, then your friend leaves the room for a hot minute leaving both you and your other friend (complicated relationship friend) alone in an incredibly awkward situation. It becomes very odd all around.

But worry not, they can hang out too. There are pictures of them around Voyager’s residence.
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wow u basicaly got kharon right on anon I’m very delightedAhhNoo!! We’re losing them!!! Anon please!!!! Come back to us!!!!,!!!!!!!!!!! Nooooooo!!!

on the other hand, ~670 wordy kharon stuff incoming:
there’s a deep brooding dislike they have towards their family because of that enforcement of the role. they were a child who felt apprehensive about being around the persistent activity of other people’s presences. worried a lot about not having time to do the things they wanted to do, and was pushed and pulled around by the people around them + basically had barely any privacy to themselves because of it / the compartmentalisation of their feelings & emotions were very much enforced for them to be as perfect as preparation to becoming a highest order. and it happened indeed. led them to becoming rather isolated as an adult and also not knowing how to deal with moments of emotional extremities anymore

This process was also incredibly rushed for Kharon in particular with the early-than-expected death of the previous G.M, and it was like “well since you can’t really learn it without her, and with the absence of (some scriptures) you might as well still become a H.O cause everyone who’s been a G.M has had a H.O streak” as per nepo baby perks While still having to prove themself worthy. And subsequently they were struck down with the horrific incident, survivors guilt & viewing it as a total moral failing thus directed all blame inwards because of that prior feeling of aversion towards their family & relatives - “This is all my fault. It happened because I wasn’t good enough as a child and as a person.” They weren’t the only ones Kharon had lost, and it most certainly affected other people around them, one of which being Vesper who Kharon considers their first ever friend. It would be traumatic anyway because if experiencing, as an 18 year old, the death of many people on your birthday Initially assumed to be a preventable incident, the inevitability of survivor’s guilt is most certainly there. Kharon I’ve played these games before and I was already borderline suicidal this makes everything worse Uwimana Ghostmarcher

revelation (same one they had at 14 but blanked out and forgot about it) - a side of their family endorsed and inflicted covert abuse under controversial beliefs That simply went under the radar because the system did not care. Kharon was a victim. So were many others at Kharon’s age , above and below. So at this point they felt so incredibly lost and frustrated about it, fluctuating between love, indifference, hatred for the people who raised them. The complicated love stems from the undeniable warmth of being cared for // the fact that they had people who said they loved them and realising they weren’t as lonely as they are now. their parents were supportive, albeit part of that gratitude has just been chipped off overtime. And they went through all of that being closeted

In secret, they endlessly wish to remain in a secure spot, in their own fantasy, / Was comforted by the idea that they need to experience the actual consequences for their actions because of how much grace they’ve been given by others , which is why they end up doing some questionable things later on.
Corvus actually helped them realise some stuff about their childhood because Corvus has been well aware and closely acquainted with the Ghostmarcher family for a while now. their early mentor-apprentice relationship can arguably be seen as close to parent-child, considering their respective experiences, but if hypothetically asked, both would also deny this perspective - Kharon’s reasoning being: They don’t deserve it and they don’t have one anymore What use is there trying to rebuild something like that for themself anywayThey can find comfort in other things!!!! Ialso dont like talking to people anyway!!!! Gah…. Yes Kharon does not really want to see other people as family (yet in the end. can’t help it)

bee tee dubs, knowing that youve known some stuff from the toyhouse, i actually cut off a section of their description detailing a section of their personality relating to their lore Because I really wanted to rewrite it and I … Did not/Sorry. But not sorry. Thank you for this question :-)

if u meant connections between ctl and players then some of them had involvement in some of carinae’s organisations. they are in the same universe. deathknell is a notable one because she was the cofounder of the esf but generally their current stories are preeetty isolated from each other. whatever happening in the players doesnt necessarily impact the events of ctl, if that makes sense. And that’s because i don’t want my other fellow player creatorfriends to be wrapped up in the mess that is ctl I’ve done enough as is!!!!

player titles replace what would be the equivalent of a user id to the corresponding numbers. they are transferred from title holder to title holder through two different kinds of transfer, mutual or forced. if it is the latter then most certainly the previous holder of the title died. #death and also the new holder gets side effects which vary player to player

player titles place them higher than the average robloxian, even if it doesnt necessarily provide them any inherent benefits besides some minor stuff. generation 1 would be considered more like torchbearers because the rest is like too much of a diversity win to be really anything definitively protagonist-like lmfao theyre literally like normal people living in a dubiously normal house /if the player had any significant roles prior to becoming a player that also affects how they place in the hierarchy. In Short: It, too, varies

i like this one hi anon

1 im very curious so i just had 900 topics i wanted to explore. that gets overwhelming obviously so then on the occasion i’d just get fixated on one or few at a time. the story ends up growing over time by itself . I honestly i have no idea how i do this or how i’ve been doing it for so long But its not like i also dont lose my spark at times. And worry not because i’m being too indulgent with my ocverse anyways / I too struggle with the same issue of inconsistency in designs, but i personally choose not 2 care and draw the outdated ones snyway…….(guilty) .

i believe what helped me is support from other people like my friends & family. Lots of what ctl emerged from were like fun friend things until i branched off to my own stories, but their comments and encouragement of it really helped me continue with my stories/ it could also just be my general mindset too. Ctl seems to be a special case because i lose interest fairly quickly on other stuff. It’s something i channel most of my ideas into! I always like keeping my brain working! on the other hand i think its the projection. how everything links together makes me giddy so anything i do just ends up being ctl anyway im the guy who goes How can I make this about my ocs towards everything. To keep a story going on is to channel ideas consistently, but don’t do it in big bursts of a lot of ideas otherwise its gonna be overwhelming (but these are personal experiences … i serve a passion that only i can really get so i dont think i can tell you exactly how you can do this if you dont go on your own little journey)

2 i see stuff i like outside or i randomly stumble upon them online and half of the time theyre really minor things or concepts that i somehow get inspired by. This is broad, but oftentimes it’s that i dont seek them intentionally but they find me instead. pinterest still might be good to have at least some sort of fundamental concept but i do find that things can get repetitive there, and the search function is sometimes not very good, so i choose not to rely on it either … for me it is mostly developing my design senses too to build my visual library instead. eg taking parts from artists i like and then studying them. this is something i do a lot. dont b afraid to be inspired and draw on ideas . otherwie its years of designing bullshit i pulled out of my ass caus e my visual references are Not Consistent/. There are probably some niche websites out there i dont know of that have good visual references befitting certain styles

3 kākāpo. endemic to new zealand. love those guys :)

4 that’s very endearing! i dont blame u for that i naturally store everything of them in my mind and it somehow works
and (? No? Not really? I guess there’s the toyhouse and i had a document in the works, but because there was so much information it just became a hassle to work on. i decided to actively sabotage both me and whoever’s reading this because i keep procrastinating. I feel bad whenever someone asks me this because it’s like well It’s… my in my head… I swear I’m working on something soon…

5 do they know ball