apr. 24 '26
hello all,
who Aren't you? what have you gotten better at, lately? (or...over a long span of time. sometimes you need it, you know...) do you spend a lot of time reflecting?
i know some people may feel like their behaviour isn't them, per se, but i think the ability to improve does hold a lot of weight over who you are. who you are, to me, is who you aren't—who you can't be, who you've stopped being, who you make sure you'll never be. and—maybe you've improved other things. not your behaviour, but your mental. your thought processes, your inner voice...
so, who can't you be? who will you never be? how's that going along—or do you maybe not put a lot of thought into this sort of stuff at all...?
this is a fairly abstract question. typically i'd try not to talk too much on these, but i figured maybe some suggestions could help.
I used to be very pessimistic. It wasn't very obvious at the time and I thought I was simply being realistic, when no, I was in a sort of crisis and felt like the worst person ever. I can't be pessimistic anymore because being so nearly killed me, in a way. I carry a lot of guilt from how I acted during that part of my life, so I always try to be the one being actually realistic, a bit absurdist on the side, listing out pros and cons, and sincerely believing that things work out for the best.
Another is being someone who can't feel. I cannot be someone who cannot feel or at least can't consider emotions inside my way of thinking. I cannot hate a person more if they claim to be "logical" but disregard emotions and make fun of people who are sensitive. It's an inherent disrespect to Life Itself, an inherent flaw in their logic! True wisdom comes from finding a path with both logic and emotion. There is emotion within logic and logic within emotion, these things can't be separated or put on different pedestals. I wish to never become such a person and cause hurt because of this line of thinking.
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