fallen star · 9h
ga ada akun kosongan 😠disini aja yaa kak.
kak awal tau kakak bi gmn? can you tell me more detail? tbh aku yakin 100% straight, tp akhir-akhir ini aku kaya mikir. aku udh lama bgt ga ngrasain romantic things or tertarik sama sama org, lalu ada satu momen aku nemu org (same gender) attractive banget. selama ini aku ngrasa itu cuma kagum aja, karena orangnya menurut aku emg gorgeous banget. tapi kok makin aku denial, aku bayangin hal like "sexual things" gmn kalo aku cium dia? aku cuma penasaran sama reaksi aku sendiri kalo aku mikirin do sexual things with same gender, dan aku ngrasa kaya apa ya lil bit kepancing? pengen gt. gatau aku juga bingung bgt. aku coba deket sana sini (opposite gender) tp semuanya aku ga bisa kasih kepastian karena gatau kaya ga attractive aja ga suka. sampe skrg aku masih suka stalk orang yg menurut aku attractive itu. tp aku yakin aku ga gt. tp gtau deh kak. bingung aku ðŸ˜ðŸ˜ðŸ˜ðŸ˜ðŸ˜ðŸ˜ðŸ˜ðŸ˜ aku gtau juga kakak bakal nangkep atau engga. intinya gt. ini setahun lebih ada di otak aku dan gatau harus gimana.
hmm … awalnya aku ngobrol biasa with this friend (we’re moots on twt). we occasionally flirted. until one day i realized my fixation toward her was much more than friends. aku tuh CAPER bgt sama cewek ini. dia kalo ngobrol sama yang lain aja i got jealous af. i thought i was being unreasonably obsessive. tapi beneran HAUS perhatian dia bgt lmao. and everytime we flirted i had this butterfly in stomach. i rly rly liked this person even before i met her. when i finally met her, i couldnt say she wasn’t gorgeous, tbh physically she’s cute but not extraordinary. yet in my eyes she’s the loveliest person. duh pokoknya aku bucin bgt hahaha 😠she was into anime and few bl books—i watched and read them all so i can TALK with her. kind of pathetic, i know. i realized that when we finally met in person, slight touch aja udah bikin aku deg2an (loser). i thought it was bcs of our first met. the second, third and after that—the feeling is still the same, even stronger. yeah, that’s how i know i’m bisexual.
let’s move on to your case. hmmmm idk if sexual attraction can be considered as bi or not. bcs lbr, even straight men sometimes sleep with another men only to fulfill their sexual needs and fantasy. i think sexuality and gender is deeper than that. imagine you spend the rest of your life with that person, can you? can you imagine—or dream to walking down the aisle with her? tbh balik lagi ke answerku yang sebelumnya, sometimes you need to … experiment to know better? for my case, i rarely fell for attractive person. aku biasanya gampang baper when we have a good time or chemistry—if they’re attractive person, that’s a plus point :p (tapi biasanya sih sepaket ya. i like beauty, brain and behavior hahaha)
