Yes I’m afraid I am with you on this :( I do adore seeing fanarts of them being together in anakt garden because it’s really cute, but realistically is hard for me to imagine. Their miscommunication goes so deep and I believe that it is their traumas from before they even got into Anakt Garden that has shaped that and then with every argument, every hurt, it only got worse. Idk they make me so sick because despite that all, we know that a small thing could change it. Like in qna Vivinos said that a lot could have been different if Ivan have known about Till drawing him… and it seems like such a little thing but like, the fact Till didn’t show him these drawings its also important, the shyness, embarassment, fear of Ivan’s reaction, of Ivan’s negative words, of rejection, it all is so important to Till’s character and is also dependant on his circumstances and trauma… I kinda feel like only accident could save them, like, Ivan accidentally seeing it (though I’m not sure if it would be enough for Ivan to take ang initiative and if he told Till he saw and if he told him that in a way that wouldn’t lead to an argument..?) or Till accidentally seeing Ivan at his low. But even there, I’m not sure. They have just so many fears, the tendencies to back away. They can’t even ask the other if they’re okay like omg the most useless gay people in the universe I am so sad. Idk. Even their first meeting, the flowercrown fight, have set their dynamic in such unbenefical way for them. Like I dont think their personalities clash, I mean, they do, but not in the “they dont fit each other and could never work out” way because I think if they communicated they could be so perfect for each other but I there’s just too many reasons as to why they couldn’t communicate to me like. they really are tragic😭