jaywon in my head is very romantic but also very toxic at the same time, with a side of a sex life with heavy kinks.

★ romantic thoughts:
jungwon is jay’s first love. jay was always waiting for the right person, he never fell in love with anyone before and never dated either, until he met jungwon. u can even say that he fell in love “at the first sight”.
jay obsessed over jungwon since he wasn’t very familiar with love and its concept, always clinging to him and touching jungwon hands or hugging him. wanted to live inside of jungwon’s skin.

jungwon, on the other side, wasn’t his first love per se. he had crushes before but this was the first time he crushed on a guy, and older than him. but he never felt the same as he feels with jay, these new emotions are overwhelming and intense, but intriguing and beautiful. especially since jay likes to touch jungwon a lot, making jungwon dizzy and shy.

as they grew older, their relationship grew more intense and complicated.

★ toxic thoughts:
they have this obsessive and possessive relationship, they’re both equally toxic with each other.

jungwon is literally obsessed with jay, always tracking where jay is and where he’s going and with who. getting jealous when jay spends way too much time with jake, sunghoon or any other member.
jungwon is not the one to make a fuss about it, he just stares at them quietly and keeps quiet until he has jay on his room asking what is wrong. then he straddles jay on the bed to kiss him and mark him, doing a trail of bites and hickeys down on jay’s neck. saying jay is his and his only. if they have time, he has sex with jay while he keeps repeating that jay is only his. (extra points if they have sex loud enough for the rest of the members to hear it, so they know they don’t have to get too close to jay <3).

jay is also obsessive with jungwon but in a different way. he’s blinded by love.
he’s so obsessed with pleasuring and keeping him happy, doesn’t matter if jay gets hurts or smth, he would do whatever it takes to keep jungwon content.

i think he would do whatever jungwon ask him even if its dangerous or extreme, because he’s THAT blinded by his love for jungwon.

★ nsfw thoughts:
they have a heavy dom/sub dynamic going on, they like to practice bdsm. no need to clarify who’s the dom between them, it’s pretty obvious lol.

jungwon is very controlling on bed, wants to have jay on complete surrender and punishes him when jay doesn’t obey; but it’s very rare that jay doesn’t, he’s very devoted to comply and satisfy his master.

jay, like i mentioned, is very devoted to jungwon and never fails to show it. worshipping his master and being a good boy for him.
he is the one that always suggests what they should try next, some fun with food, wax, knives, ropes, etc. whatever he founds and it’s interesting enough to use it during sex.
(sometimes even jungwon gets a little weirded out by jay’s requests… asking him if he’s sure about it but jay is very enthusiastic about it so they try it regardless).