I HAVE BEEN CRYING ALL DAYYY IT JUST KEEPS COMING THANK YOU SO MUCH!!!! i feel like today has been one of the most emotional (positive) days of my life oh my goodness. sorry for the incoming essay

firstly, i’m so happy you’re feeling better now. getting better is a lifelong thing that ebbs and flows, it’s hard to do and you should be proud of yourself for doing it. i’m sure you already know, it is well worth the work. keep getting better always! i’m cheering for you!

second, my writing has been The thing i turn to in my darkest times for so much of my life, and the fact that i can extend that is more special to me than i can even say. i had this clinician in one of the treatment centers i frequented for many years that i really connected with and respected and trusted. one time she very sincerely told me that i “have so many beautiful things to share.” if anyone else said that i would’ve rolled my eyes, but since it was her i’ve been letting it marinate for like… three or four years now? it never felt very true, but i kept it in mind.

you and others have really made me feel like i have so many beautiful things to share. i will seriously be grateful for that forever. i am but a person, not wonderful nor bad, who puts a lot of effort into being happy and peaceful and kind. i fail all the time, but i never stop trying. it can be a thankless task, but hearing things like this feels like reaping what i’ve sown at a scale i never could’ve imagined and — again — will be grateful for forever

thank you so much for sharing this. it made me giggle so hard and like, isn’t life just looking forward to kpop rpf in the mental hospital…? living is suffering and joy is everywhere. both are true in equal measures. i’m happy we got to share this light together. let’s keep getting better and keep finding the lights amongst the horrors !!! may they become brighter and brighter