hi this actually makes me sad that you're saying this because it's not an obsession, I'm not obsessed with Lazarus, just attached. I'm genuinely an isolated person both in-real-life and online. I have no one to talk to at all because of the lack of acces i have to websites such as discord and stuff... (It's some stupid blocking thing) Lazarus is actually the only person I can interact with woh is ACTUALLY my friend, and I didn't meet him on the neospring website we met around June - July 26 or so. I know I may seem "obsessive", but I am truly ot. I don't have any romantical feelings for him either, only platonic feelings or fondness. I'm awful at interacting with people nd it's been like that for about 2 years. I was only used to talking to him because I was genuinely trying to be his friends since I thought he was awesome, and after trying my best to be social it actually worked, and I was so used to talking to him already. The only reason why I still would even talk to him is because he's actually easy to talk to, and very funny at most which is why I talk to him so much. And we don't even start up an actual conversation about serious things sometimes we joke around A LOT. He only means a lot to me and being obsessed with someone is the only thing I'd always never want. Nor do I want to be in a romantical relationship with someone because of my poor experience. It's not like I can feel anything romantic for anyone anyways because it's hard to find out my feeling and please do keep in mind I do have disorders that can affect me majorly with how I feel and think, also my relationship towards other including Lazarus... (BPD, ADHD, Schizophrenia and another one that I was never comfortable sharing, not even with Lazarus.) I'd actually never want to be obsessed with Lazarus or anyone else, and I don't want to be viewed that I'm "obsessed" with someone beause I am not. Thys really ruined my day anon. Thankss.