hi hi!! my fav wip is sunshine and heavy rain!

it is definitely has to write, especially because i've been taking my time with it, so sometimes the things that have happened are not as fresh in my mind. When this happens i have to go back to what is out more often and it is always a bit hard haha

i've been thinking about this story since i was writing/posting love all, so it has been a while in the making and it is difficult to me because i don't want take it too personal, you know? I don't want to take minho's pain and make it mine, but sometimes it is pretty obvious that i do haha especially when it is jeongin who is frustrated.

and it's also a tricky line to walk... to make things obvious without making them clear? i think it's rater obvious when we notice minho's bahavior that he was deep in an abusive relationship, but i don't want the abuse to be obvious at all times. No wait skjdfhdjshfds i want it to be obvious, but i don't want it to be bad enough that it is frustrating that minho doesn't leave.

i want it to seem small when separated. one word here, one word there. it is easy to let it go when it's like that, but when we look back and see the bigger picture, we see that it wasn't a hole in the wall, but rather a piece of wood attached to nothing. does that make sense?

i want it to be frustrating to others to see minho ponder and struggle because 'oh my god, just listen to what he is saying!!' because it is always easy to see when looking from outside. i want his realization, his "confessions" to things that happened to be as heartbreaking as possible bc to me, that is where the juice is: understanding your circumstances..

idk sjkdfhksdjfs it's not easy to write or work on the outline, but it is a story that i'm honestly proud of, and i'm happy i'm writing it.