omg this means that YOU were the little voice in his head hehe i love that!!! a good friend of mine beta-ed records of you and me, and we would have small arguments bc she is like 'hey, maybe you should consider this', and i would tell her 'nah, jisung told me that' skjdfhsdjkfs it was fun, after about four chapters, she realized that yes i am open to suggestions and edits, but there are things that i'm like an immovable object about bc a character told me so i'll ahve to honor it hahaha

but it is also fun to have someone to have a conversation with abou the story!! like with sunshine and heavy rain, when minho goes quiet, i get really frustrated with him bc i just want to get to one specific scene that i've had in my mind since chapter one and he WON'T LET ME GET THERE!! CMON MINHO!!!! and it drives me nuts. but i recognize that having chats about abusive relationships and the aftermaths of it is not fun skjdfsd so it is better to just take a deeeeeep breath and wait for minho to see my compassion as that instead of pity (it's a struggle).

hi hi!

so, i say this often, but i let the characters talk to me skjdfhsdfs like, ofc im the one writing, but they exist in my head, and after a while they take a life of their own, so i wait until they talk to me. tennis minho from love all was a yapper. got me writing 290k in six months haha that was certainly a time in my life.

jisung from records of you and me also talked a lot, and im grateful!! but minho from package deal was a bit more stubborn. and minho from sunshine and heavy rain just stops talking to me at times ksjdhfdsj you know what they say about people similar to us. i wish he knew that the compassion i show him is the same i wish had been extended to me a few years back. he will get it when he starts healing. right now we are in a quiet argument; i know it sounds crazy haha

i don't really have drafts! i just have one document for a chapter/one shot (rarity) and go with it! i write linear, so, for example: i knew exactly how chapter 16 of love all would go, but i couldn't write it until i got to it bc even though i know the destination, i don't know the route the character will take to get there (not entirely).

i do have small outlines, so i try to update as i go, but i doesn't always work, especially for shorter (my definition of short alright hahah) fics. but for long ones (love all, records of you and me, sunshine and heavy rain) i have to constantly check what went where so as not to mess with the continuity!

im not very good at reviewing or double checking things jksdfsdghjfs that is pretty obvious with how many typos i have everywhere. but i always read it once after posting it, and then edit it on ao3 if there is anything that i catch!

im a bit of a mess, but it works hahah i think!

hi hi!!

i do!!! my favorite color is green!! i prefer the forest green shade, but moss is a wonderful choice as well as just any other tbh skdjfsdhfs green has always been my fav color; my bedroom walls are green (although i chose the shade when i was thirteen, and thirteen-year-old pepper was a LOT brighter than twenty-nine-year-old pepper sdkfjhsdjfs i would like a more muted tone now.

And i love yellow and brown!! both of them from all points of the color spectrum!! especially if it is mixed a bit with oranges hehe. well. im an earth tones kind of gal skjfdskhfjsd

i have at least one shirt and/or pants for most colors kgjdsfhsjdf my closet is a rainbow (literally, i organize it by color sjkfsdj)

i haven't done much progress yet, but im hoping that today i can get a bit done for the minbin fest!!! fingers crossed <3 hope you have a great night my friend!!

hihi!!

the short answer is yes!! the long answer is idk how that would work bc my streaming account is personal, you know? the username is my name and all that jksdfhsdjf even though pepper is a real nickname, it's my dad and his side of the family who use it most. and not only are they very much offline, but they are very much not in the yaoi lifestyle, so it feels "safe" to be miss pepper online ksdfjhsfd my name is rather common, but one of my last names is NOT sjhsdfhks im terrified of being perceived in reality, if that makes sense?? im meeting a few people in the RiR in REAL LIFE (gasp) and its both exciting and terrifying. so, im choosing to keep the imaginary anonymity for now!!

what i thought of doing is a youtube playlist, maybe try to make it in one video, you know? but i haven't sat down to do that or consider what i would REALLY want it to be there!! especially bc there are SO many songs that remind me of this fic!! some bc of minho, some bc of jeongin, some bc of jisung... some bc of the place where i took inspiration from to create their little town!! there is one specific song that will fit a future chapter sooooo well, but i cant talk about it yet bc it is so far in the future ksdjfhjskfskfds

but maybe the youtube playlist is a good idea!! do you have songs i should maybe include?

hihi!!

i hate to say this, but you unlocked a topic that no one was ready for skdjfsdhfjsd ok. ok. so, i am obsessed with cakes. BUT we have categories, right? birthday cakes, german cakes (its own thing fr fr, germany's bakeries were deadly to me), cakes to have with coffee (one guess where i'm from in brazil kkkkkk), ice cream cakes, cheesecakes... many things to consider........

i'll be reasonable and choose one (or two...) from each category ksfdjsfs
- birthday cake: i would have to say the strawberry and cream cake that my godmother's neighbor does. oh my GOD!!! it is so delicious, and moist (sorry to the people who hate this word, idk how else to describe sdkjfhhfsd) and the fruit brings a freshness that helps with the sweetness!
- german cakes: raspberry cake. you'll have to pry that thing off my cold dead hands!!!! i missyou so much my dearest cake, i will come back eventually (just to visit, dont get me wrong ndfkjsdfs)
- cakes to have with coffee: orange cake (brazilian recipe) is potentially my fav cake to ever cake. i would go to war for this. bolo de bolo (regular cake, no special flavor) when you leave it in the oven for a bit longer and then there is that dry-ish crust?? oh my GOD!!!!!!
- cheesecake: either the classic or mango cheesecake, amen
- ice cream cake: ... not a fan ksjdfhkshdf BUT!!!! there is a crumbly layer that makes it worth it. it has to be with vanilla ice cream tho...

here are some other fav cakes bc i promise one/two of each category, but br cakes (to have with coffee) are my shit: carrot cake, corn cake (i won't hear a word about it), fubá cake, coconut cake.

AAAAAAAAAAAH!!!!! eu to toda mole 🥺🥺 você sabe o tanto que isso fez meu dia?? serio isso é a coisa mais fofa do mundo, eu to encantada!! nao acredito que voce pensou no meu minmin escutando musica!!!!!!

acho uma ÓTIMA musica pra ele!! eu tenho tambem algumas que associo com ele, todas bem diferentes uma das outras hahah masss

list of songs that i associate with minho from sunshine and heavy rain
- bad omens, 5 seconds of summer
- better now, janet devlin
- bruises, lewis capaldi
- cinema screen, janet devlin
- coisas que eu sei, danni carlos
- devolva-me, adriana calcanhoto
- good enough, evanescence
- happy, day6
- headspace, lewis capaldi
- hollow, stray kids
- lie to me, 5 secods of summer
- love is a losing game, amy whinehouse
- maybe tomorrow, day6
- na sua estante, pitty
- primeiros erros (chove), capital inicial
- save my soul, jojo
- sozinho, caetano veloso
- these four walls, little mix
- triste pra sempre, jão

hihi!

ohh im super excited for the conflict!! i won't spoil it, but it has been kind of building for many chapters now, so there will be a bit of a blow up with an accidental reveal by minho hehe but i guess its part of why i have been dreading to write it, too skdjfhsdkjfs

im keeping this answer as vague as possible so, you know, it's still fun (?) to read. but there are aspects of the story that i really don't want to write bc it's uncomfortable, right? i know where the story goes, but minho kind of takes control. i've said this before but its like the caracter talks to me and i just... write it. so sometimes, even though i know where the story goes and all the things that i will have to write about, it doesn't make it any easier to put it on paper. and this minho, my precious hotel manager, is on par with my tennis player minho for how much i care for him. i just want to protect my baby and hela him; but for that to happen we have to accept that certain things happened and move from there.

but i think it's coming out ok skjfhsd i hope!!!

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this is the most endearing way someone has indulged me. thank you, i needed it, im not surviving another hour at work (this is TORTURE).

I'm quite indiferent to it actually skjfhdhfsd in small quantities, it doesn't bother me! It can be a good tchan in some dishes, but when it's live EVERYWHERE, then i don't like it skdfjsdhfjds but it doesn't taste like soap to me! and there are waaaay better herbs to season food with.

if i could, id shove rosemary in everything, but i know that not everything goes with rosemary (lies, i say taht to sound reasonable, everyone should season with it much more). i also loooove a good basil, OH OH and bay leaf. my god, next time you make beans, after you take them out of the presure cooker to season etc., once you cover it with water to simmer with the seasoning, pls put at least one bay leaf in it. hmmmm it adds a lil je n'ai sais quoi. delicious