hi hi!!

I'm good, how are you? <3

Omg skz st Rock in Rio was AMAZING!!! Absolutely surreal to be in the middle of the crowd for such an iconic moment!!! i'm very glad that i went with a friend; im a bit scared of crowds and being with her helped a whole lot!! i'm very thankful for all the gentleness and patience she had with me when i started lowkey worrying that we were getting too much in the crowd; i feel bad that we didn't get closer, but im thankful and happy to have shared this experience with her!!! im sooooo thrilled still that we got bounce back!!!! i think bounce back should be played everywhere at all times. when they gave us hall fo fame (!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!) i was alllllllll the way back there screaming for easy (i wanted to scream winter falls but i knew it wasnt the moment). it was so fun and so exciting and just the best time!!! i want to see them perform all the time hahaha

5sos was incredible!!!! it was my second time seeing them, but my god, they are just so good. it was very fun witnessing them trying to say my city's name skjdfhsdf they just kept getting worse every time they tried; very endearing!! i lost my voice and only today it is kind of normal hehe evolve live? EVOLVE LIVE? no notes. they replaced the bridge where there is the doctor talking abour early myelination with the pre-choros with 'i wanna have fun, i wanna get high, i wanna get drunk (when you gonna grow up?) i wanna do drugs, i wanna make love, i wanna get fucked' mixed with the 'to lo-lo-lo-lo-love you i got to evolve' and i ASCENDED!!! i got to listen to 'scared i'll never sleep again' which fucks live!! but my god. jet black heart live again? forever. i need it forever and ever adn ever!!!! and bad omens is still emotional enough to make me cry skjdfhsdfjsd

thank you for indulging me <3 back to writing hehe

HI hi!!

I'm doing well! i lost my voice during my 5sos concert yesterday ahah i sound very silly right now. How are you??

Hmmmm... a good movie... I have seen some brazilian classics for the first time recently, and i'm obsessed!! There is Carandiru which is based on a real event at a prison; very intense and devastating, so while I recommend bc it's a wonderful movie, it's important to exercise caution. Oh! It wasn't like, RECENTLY, but idk that i mentioned that i watched Hunger, which is a Thai movie and i thought it was really cool. very intense and beautifully shot!!

The writing session is going alright!! I'm very very nervous about this one sjdkfhsdf i love the characters and i care for them a lot, but i'm not too confident on everything else. I'm excited to be done and review it, to make it as good as i can with the very little time i have left!!! besides that, i'm excited to be done writing it so i can work on sunshine and heavy rain without feeling guilty about a deadline haha

<3 thank you so so much!! i've been having a really hard time with writing and my own creative side for a minute, so this means a whole lot!!! the people need more minbin, you are so right. that's pretty much the only reason i haven't dropped the fest bc i've dropped three other ones this year bc i feel meh about my writing ksdjfhdsf

and the second point is actually a very nice motivator bc my fic might not be the best thing ever written but it IS written by a person!!!! my 1001 typos prove it well :]

i'll keep going and tyr my best. i need to come up with a title; usually i think im good at this part, but my god. i cant think of a single good one skjdfhdfs

deadline is 02 Oct, after that i can go back to my main skill: mkaing minho suffer in sunshine and heavy rain/lh

hi hi!!

He has been yapping today! Not too much, but he is doing his best haha

Ahhh!!! my silly babies hehe i actually worked in recruiting before! it was my first job out of university!! some of the things are actually borrowed from my experience haha the little job competitions? those were a thing where i used to work, but i got banned from them after... five months? they were not prepared for my recently-retired-ass jskfhsdfdsj twelve years competing for tennis, three months without a SINGLE challenge, i went a bit crazy.

i didn't particularly care for recruiting; it was too much for me. I struggled with keeping it professional a lot of the times; unfortunately i make everything personal and that is not a thing that can happen in hr bc it will like, DRAIN you in the long run (my coworkers kept telling me that but i was too stubborn that it could be a good thing skjdfsjkdf it really couldn't bc it wsn't just caring about finding a job to someone, it was also me being the reason why someone didn't get a job).

i think it's an admirable job and very necessary though, especially bc temp agencies can really help people get back on their feet and find a good opportunity!! just... i think i'd rather never have to do it again snkdjfdshfsd

SUNGJIN!!!

eu amo meu vocalista, sério. eu acho ele um cara tão esquisito (elogio), tudo o que eu sei sobre ele é tipo ???? mas ao mesmo tempo !!!! tipo ele é extrovertido demais, o que foi algo que eu não esperava quando comecei a ouvir anos atrás!!

mas o que eu mais gosto é o fato de ele ser um cara tão extrovertido e alto astral nos eventos, shows, conteúdos, mas ele escreve bastante sobre questões introspectivas e especialmente sobre ansiedade/depressão. ele traduz sentimentos de uma forma tão bonita... fico encanta demais!!

sobre ships: você acredita que nem tenho um especifico?? eu acho muito lindinho que o sungjin e o youngk ficam <3<3 com o wonpil, mas é só o dowoon abrir a boca que </3 skjfsdfdsjkfsd de brincadeira, claro. o maknae ainda é bem mimadinho (positivo), mas o wonpil é TÃO fofo, que parece que ele tem tratamento especial 24hrs do dia. eu amooooooooooo

oi oi oie!!

meu deus skdfsdfs fico nervosa, mas é um nervosismo bom!! primeiro que eu tenho que terminar esse trem ksjdhfsd já escrevi e deletei tanta coisa... nem sei te explicar o que ta acontecendo no doc hahaha mas!! não posso falar muito porque o evento a gente entrega a fic anônima, então tenho que tomar um tiquinho de cuidado!! Mas, o que você pode esperar é: minho constipado emocionalmente, changbin um CHARME!!! essa vai ser, talvez (com certeza), minha fic mais explicita então eu to ✨com vergonha✨ skjdfhsdkfsdfsdk mas eu supero (espero). queria muito poder falar mais, mas primeiro que nem sei se eu vou terminar a tempo, e depois porque não pode 😔

eu podia muito bem ser diplomática e responder em inglês também, mas eu to com o interruptor no português agora kkkkkkkkk eu já falo inglês demais durante o dia (com amigos, no trabalho, comigo mesma enquanto eu escrevo fanfic)...

mas eu escrevi bonitinho, sem nenhuma coisa estranha pra que se alguém quiser traduzir, o google não dê problema kkkkkkkk eu normalmente escrevo do jeito que eu falo, o que não é nem perto de ser gramaticalmente correto (amém minas gerais)

Hi hi my dear!

You know, i got into skz back in sept 2020, thank you back door mv, thank you youtube mix!! and a bit after that was the first heartkids room. the minho episode just melted my heart bc changbin was so excited every round bc he survived them all skdfhdsjfs and then minho was a little shit just to be a little shit and that made me aaaaaaaaa!!

i just love their dynamics so much!! the playfulness mixed with the best kind of sincerity. I love how they hold hands and cuddle so often (and yet not often enough). I love love love how comfortable they seem to be with each other, and yet are still just little shits skdjhfsjdf there is just a lot!!

one of the moments i love the most is the 'howling in harmony' when felix chooses minho to kiss changbin and instead he boops his nose on binnie's cheek. it is so cute? and what for???? i have a lil list of my fav moments here

they are also in an neverending game of gay chicken and that's VERY important to me :]

omg this means that YOU were the little voice in his head hehe i love that!!! a good friend of mine beta-ed records of you and me, and we would have small arguments bc she is like 'hey, maybe you should consider this', and i would tell her 'nah, jisung told me that' skjdfhsdjkfs it was fun, after about four chapters, she realized that yes i am open to suggestions and edits, but there are things that i'm like an immovable object about bc a character told me so i'll ahve to honor it hahaha

but it is also fun to have someone to have a conversation with abou the story!! like with sunshine and heavy rain, when minho goes quiet, i get really frustrated with him bc i just want to get to one specific scene that i've had in my mind since chapter one and he WON'T LET ME GET THERE!! CMON MINHO!!!! and it drives me nuts. but i recognize that having chats about abusive relationships and the aftermaths of it is not fun skjdfsd so it is better to just take a deeeeeep breath and wait for minho to see my compassion as that instead of pity (it's a struggle).

hi hi!

so, i say this often, but i let the characters talk to me skjdfhsdfs like, ofc im the one writing, but they exist in my head, and after a while they take a life of their own, so i wait until they talk to me. tennis minho from love all was a yapper. got me writing 290k in six months haha that was certainly a time in my life.

jisung from records of you and me also talked a lot, and im grateful!! but minho from package deal was a bit more stubborn. and minho from sunshine and heavy rain just stops talking to me at times ksjdhfdsj you know what they say about people similar to us. i wish he knew that the compassion i show him is the same i wish had been extended to me a few years back. he will get it when he starts healing. right now we are in a quiet argument; i know it sounds crazy haha

i don't really have drafts! i just have one document for a chapter/one shot (rarity) and go with it! i write linear, so, for example: i knew exactly how chapter 16 of love all would go, but i couldn't write it until i got to it bc even though i know the destination, i don't know the route the character will take to get there (not entirely).

i do have small outlines, so i try to update as i go, but i doesn't always work, especially for shorter (my definition of short alright hahah) fics. but for long ones (love all, records of you and me, sunshine and heavy rain) i have to constantly check what went where so as not to mess with the continuity!

im not very good at reviewing or double checking things jksdfsdghjfs that is pretty obvious with how many typos i have everywhere. but i always read it once after posting it, and then edit it on ao3 if there is anything that i catch!

im a bit of a mess, but it works hahah i think!