Anonymous · 8d
hi eli i saw your post or reply idk i forgot that said your vamp seungyang fic is no ones favorite and it broke my foxpuppy heart why would you say that about her... shes MY favorite. i havent read the others in the series but ive read your other fics so i have an informed opinion!!!!!!!
i'm sorry for the sudden mood switch, i had to put something else first or i'd be too scared to say this next partshsjwkdjfj, trigger warning for real life incest, please do not feel pressured to answer or read this and i'm very very sorry if this isn't appropriate to say. but thank you for talking about your experiences in an incestuous sibling relationship, i recently left home and consequently left my brother and i feel a lot of discomfort when you talk poorly about sibling relationships, and i think it's important for me to sit in that discomfort and feel it deeply instead of not challenging it. i don't hear much of how bad sibling relationships are, since people in my life don't know how bad it got.. (yet! working on it) so thank you. i don't want to just be fine with fucking my brother anymore. i'm very anxious that this isn't okay to say, i just think there isn't nearly enough gratitude expressed these days and i'm very unsocialized hajdjdhshd. i'm really very sorry if this is out of line. all the love to you and your sibling, i hope me and my brother can heal and have a normal relationship like you. and thank you again for talking about what you went through.
Hi anon, sorry it's taken me so long to answer this, you didn't make me uncomfortable at all and I'm honestly really flattered you felt safe sharing this with me and sending this message. I took a while to answer bc I felt really honored by your trust and I wanted to give you the time and energy you deserve. Part of the reason I talk about my own experiences is to reach out to other people who have gone through similar things, so it's never wrong to talk to me about this. I understand if you want to remain anonymous but feel free to message again or dm if that's more comfortable.
I'm so glad you like the vampire seungyang so much, it's what it deserves and honestly it makes me really happy to hear that it's the only one in the series you've read. The series is built so people can enjoy them as stand alone stories so it's really validating to hear someone enjoyed it that way.
I'm really glad to know my talking about my experience was helpful to you. One of the hardest things for me was accepting that what happened was harmful. I identified it as incest for years but it took me a long time to accept it was abusive even after I had accepted that other parts of our relationship had been physical and emotional and verbal abuse. Somehow sexual abuse is much harder to accept, at least it was for me. I'm happy you're working through things and you've decided to set boundaries in your relationship. I promise your relationship can become so much better and enjoyable when you're not interacting in that way. I hope you're able to heal and find a normal relationship! And again, thank you for trusting me with this.
