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apr. 24 '26
hello all,
who Aren't you? what have you gotten better at, lately? (or...over a long span of time. sometimes you need it, you know...) do you spend a lot of time reflecting?
i know some people may feel like their behaviour isn't them, per se, but i think the ability to improve does hold a lot of weight over who you are. who you are, to me, is who you aren't—who you can't be, who you've stopped being, who you make sure you'll never be. and—maybe you've improved other things. not your behaviour, but your mental. your thought processes, your inner voice...
so, who can't you be? who will you never be? how's that going along—or do you maybe not put a lot of thought into this sort of stuff at all...?
this is a fairly abstract question. typically i'd try not to talk too much on these, but i figured maybe some suggestions could help.
I am not whoever people say I am!!! Ahh welll.. Mayb.ee.... The me that many see is different from them me that I see myself as, 'cuz I have a bad problem with Acting.,.,.,.. Pretending to be someone I am not is just how I learned to communicate and interact with people, 'cuz of myy autismm..,.,.,,,, which often leads to me acting in whatever way they want or expect — despite my own thoughts & comfort. But,,, yknow.. perhaps that does make me that me that they see ? just perhaps... But I do not see myself that way soo .,.,.,.,.,
I've gotten better at being less evil and less self-destructive !! It is awesome!! I only ever hope for improvement !!! I have seen myself do it despite thinking it was impossible, so it is very important to me that everyone else improves as well !!! Self reflection is basically all I do with my time now because I ammm free very often.. It is also a very awesome thing that people should be doing all the time!
Small rant sorry but I think you might enjoy reading anyway -> I think that being able to tell yourself that you were a bad person, did bad things, etc, etc. and taking steps to improve on your behavior after realizing is very strong and makes me respect those people a lot! My endless hours of (self-)reflection are why I'm so hopeful and blindly trusting of other's words until they give me a reason to doubt them — AND EVEN THEN !! I WILL KEEP HOPING FOR THEIR IMPROVEMENT BECAUSE IF THEY DO NOT, THEN WE WILL HAVE TO EXECUTE THEM PUBLICLY, AND THAT IS JUST TERRIBLE !!! I cannot believe that people have consequences for their actions !!!!
Anywways. I cannot be a bad person by my own standards, I cannot be a hypocrite, I cannot not stand for anything, I cannot be illogical, I cannot be overly violent (I need to give myself some space here sorry LMAO), I cannot be a liar, I cannot be someone who is ignorant, and I absolutely CANNOT be stupid !!! I have been all of these things in the past and it is why I know who I cannot be now. Ahh I do joke about a lot of this stuff tho so maybe I truly am just forever evil lololol
