jagiya · 3mo
Ahh i know. I saw posts saying how peopl won’t read a thread or a paragraph that validates someone’s “fucked up” views or something. Their ignorance is beyond me. Sexual fantasies, fucked up or not, are /completely healthy/. I can get into it but I won’t either lol.
And I too get where people are coming from when they see taboo things and are uncomfortable and have different views and mindsets about it. I completely understand that because I was literally the same way. I used to think darker tropes were too messed up and physically recoiled when I saw them. I honestly was disturbed by them and was one of those people that thought writing should be this and that. Obviously I changed lol, but that mindset was mostly a result from my sheltered upbringing.
So i understand where they’re coming from, but to immediately say shit about how people shouldn’t live for the tropes and taboo they like, to continually harass and bully other people for it. To put themselves in spaces they aren’t comfortable in for the sole purpose of sending hundreds, thousands of people to harass others because /they/ dont like what someone else is writing. Taboo is disturbing and not typically what other people deem as “normal” because that’s what it is: taboo. And at the end of the day, this is fiction we are talking about.
Bskjdjs sorry didn’t meant to rant. The amount of harassment you, cloud or any dd account receive is ridiculous and insane. But still you sticking to your beliefs and opinions makes my heart flutter and me so proud of you for not giving in to the continuous harassment you receive because I know I would fold immediately. I did Oops. Regardless, never stop being your freaky self, and stay strong ❣️
Take care kira ❤️ -s
(SORRY idk how to reply back because I dont have a alterspring)
sorry I know this is an insanely late response KJNWKJND
it's refreshing hearing from someone with the same understanding of these topics!!
to your point about the sheltered upbringing: i will neverrrr pass up a chance to talk about this ngl because I was also very sheltered. born and raised in a very puritanical religious environment. truth be told I think I did a lot of confronting on the topic of shame and being upset by certain things before I really got very into the media I'm into now and DEFINITELY before I dabbled in fandom in any capacity. truthfully, even getting into BL was stepping outside of my comfort based on how I was raised and I battled a lot of internalized fear and shame for it at the beginning.
I often wonder if I had gotten into this sort of environment before all of that (when i was much younger) if I would have felt the same way as so many of these people. when things have made me uncomfortable in the past I never much remember them making me feel angry. mostly they made me feel afraid...like I would just sort of retreat into myself and avoid them as much as possible. but I know that is absolutely because of how I was raised and how my specific environment made me feel about things that are "wrong" or "evil" to some degree. I'm really so much happier and healthier now that I'm able to approach uncomfortable topics with more curiosity and a level head.
i really appreciate all your words here and your support...thank you so much <3 it's difficult dealing with the negativity and the attacks but I often feel like the only other option is to not be true to myself which I am just not willing to do. please know if you ever want someone to talk to or to find your way back into this space more publicly you can reach out to me any time!! <3
