I mean okay how long you got because I think there's actually a lot to say here because Carol is fundamentally just broken by her past traumas in a way where she started to single-mindedly pursue a purpose not necessarily laid out for her but used to be a genuine passion she shared with her father, who was burned alive in front of her

and in keeping with that, we see her just go after this ongoing pursuit of knowledge, tossing all else aside, literally burning her memories away to use as fuel until this pursuit becomes outright destructive. she wants to unravel the world itself to see how it ticks and will just sort of do whatever it takes to do that, not thinking about the human elements of her father and what his compassion represented

but every so often, a little bit of her old self shines through. the arrogance she puts on most of the time turns into a childish, almost joking hautiness. when she has fun, she revels in what she's doing instead of just pursuing it, even if in those situations she is being outwardly hostile in the moment. it isn't just that she grew up without a father, but she grew up in a situation where it was practically against her will in a world that she effectively had to assume hated her

and so she's a child. no matter how old she may be, she's really just a child. she is (for the majority of the time) visibly a child, and does not seem to fully know what to do with herself when she is in a more adult form, getting more impulsive and aggressive. it's this whole thing, y'know? she's been fucking age regressing for literally hundreds of years

but in the end, there's still this spark of who she used to be. even when she burns almost everything about herself away so that she's practically a husk, she gives herself up so that a version of herself, Elfnein, who is so fucking innocent and scared, who is a child who didn't have to go through everything she did, can live, and can even live in a human body instead of a homunculus

and I just kinda think that's a big deal