kitty · 6d
good evening beloved cloudrages. im up thinking about nerdsung who's shy and socially awkward. kinda has a hard time getting close to people because he has this lingering fear of being judged for his interests and the way he acts in general
naturally because of that he has ZERO relationship experience and is a massive virgin which is. very frustrating to him because hes really horny. just thinking of this nerdsung who is a massive pervert and obsessed with reading the NASTIEST yaoi and yuri he can find. he's into pretty much everything, from the tamest to the more taboo and thats another thing that causes him a lot of embarrasment—just how much he thinks about sex and how out there his fantasies can be
i think hes at a point in his life where he has accepted he'll die a virgin. in his head, he thinks he's too awkward and his tastes are too weird for him to ever be in a relationship or for someone to at least want to fuck him. he tries to tell himself he doesn't NEED to have sex and that the concept of virginity is stupid anyway, but he wants it so bad. he wants it so bad and he fucks his pussy with big tentacle dildos and cries from how big they are and how overwhelmed they make him, while wishing he had someone to hold him down and force him to take more
and then minho comes into his life. i havent thought this far but im thinking of a situation where they meet and jisung tries to push minho away like he does with everyone but his closest friends he has known since forever. he's just insecure because minho seems Cool and Put-Together and not like someone who'd want anything with a weird socially inept nerd like jisung (his words not mine (i love nerdsung)). maybe they meet at work or at a situation of almost forced proximity like a uni project which forces jisung to just. not be able to avoid minho
but minho is so obsessed with him. he brings jisung home-cooked treats and stares at him while he eats. he always seems to show up whenever jisung is alone and he somehow always knows what absurd thing to say to make jisung laugh. jisung feels so flustered around this man and he seriously cant understand what it is that minho saw in him. surely he just pities jisung and feels bad about the fact that hes always alone right? surely theres nothing else there......
maybe he also feels like hes fooling minho somehow. likes hes putting on a act and minho is seeing a version of him that isnt his True Self. and, again, minho definirely wouldnt want anything to do with him if he knew the extent of jisungs loserisms. realistically he really should find a way to avoid minho before he inevitably ends up being hurt in the situation. buts its impossible when 1. minho is so insistent and 2. things get Difficult to avoid when jisung starts picturing minho in the place of the faceless men of his fantasies
anyway . what happens next is up to your beautiful imagination and also mine as i go to sleep 😴
🍰i love avoidant trans jisung so fucking much you have no idea . i love how mental health focused stories and this is right up my alley and my breath hitched at the tentacle dildo sentence thank you . yes i think jisung should try to push minho away and minho should be so insistant because hes not blind and he sees how much jisung likes him so What is that silly little boy doing. i love minho staring at jisung while he eats of course.. i hope the more jisnug pushes him away the more minho gets close to jsiung (physically) and also visits him at his apartment unnanounced (how does he know where he livess?) and he enters his personal space constantly to the point where jisung has to stammer too close! too close!! but it only makes minho giggle sweetly and tease him about how red he gets.. i hope this is also where minho figures out jisungs a virgin. and hes really surprised because he thinks jisung is so hot . and hes being so blunt about this and saying it directly to jisungs face and jisung is the embodiment of the spiral eyes emoji.. i hope minho enters jisungs room (while jisung is trying to hold him back but minho doesnt budge <3) and sees his smut mangas on the shelves and jisungs box of ad dragon and tentacle dildos and jisung at this point is crying and apologizing. and minho opens jisungs closet and he finds lingerie and skimpy outfits and also His Own Hoodie that he lent to jisung weeks ago . and jisung is a puddle on the floor, extremely red and snotty . minho has to pick him up gently and carry him to his bed and soothe him until they can talk .. and jisung is just like im so sorry hyung im sorry that im so awkward and weird and that i hump your hoodie every night and that i thikn of you when i fuck myself. i dont think we should be friends . and minho is stunned but also extremely amused because jisung is a beautiful little mess....... um he should tease jisung about how hes a pervert and jisug should almost die from it until minho says that obviously he thinks its hot and that he wont go home today without making jisung come at least twice.
right sorry i turned this so smutty so fast but i really do love the themes of jisung being avoidant and minho slowly cracking his shell and entering jisungs lungs where he stays in there forever and jisung cant get rid of him .... they end up roleplaying all of jisungs favourite smut scenes ... theyd both love it .......
also in another au i would turn this into non-con in a way that minho forces himself onto jisung because jisung will never let him in (ha) otherwise. thats my personal avoidant fantasy lmfao . thank you so much for sharing this was delightful
