IVE BEEN DYING TO SHARE THESE OKAY (SPOILERS BELOW)

here's some outtakes, deleted scenes and fun facts
- the draft names for fh included "god's country", "televangelism" and "stomping ground", all ethel cain tracks i felt related well in their titles to the fic
- monica's character was originally supposed to be an abusive adopted mother in the way of she's aware and chooses to ignore it, but i quickly realised she wouldn't play much of a role in the story and wanted to make her more of a foe as opposed to a hunter like her father.
- the character going into minho's windows was originally ryujin from itzy, who was going to run off with yeji (hyunjin's sister) but i scrapped the idea after i realised she really wasn't relevant to much else of the plot and cut it down to hyunjin. yeji is still hyunjin's sister who is mentioned in "nettles", and ryujin is the girl minho hit it off with!
- the original relationship timeline was going to only be two months before the climax of the fic
- wally's character wasn't planned and was freehanded when i got to the chapter where he's first mentioned, all the mentions of "walman" being penned in later. it was one of those moments where a huge piece of the puzzle to jisung and lyn's relationship struggles that felt so satisfying to finally get to write down the reason.
- chan's wife is seonghwa from ateez (in case anyone missed it!)
- chan, changbin and felix were originally not going to be in the fic at all and the boyfriend hyunjin made was going to be irrelevant, but i needed someone to knock some sense into jisung and realised changbin was the perfect person.
- the overhanging plot of children being killed was Going to be more relevant as well, and I had an idea for jisung to be in town investigating the murders, but with the plot i decided on i decided to leave the murders as a looming thing to only be brought up every few chapters by people like angel who are more aware of it (as a child who would constantly fear that vs minho who kind of has so much going on that he can't afford to think about that constantly)
- angel's character was going to not be explored and was going to remain background, but i added her into the chapters around 20 chapters into writing. minho was originally supposed to find out the affair through conversations with jisung, and micah didn't find out until much later.
- the wall scene was one of the first scenes to pop to mind when i was brainstorming for this fic, as well as the scene of them driving out of town.
- churchyard undoing was entirely based off of "crying during sex" by ethel cain
- the final chapter is based off of "golden age" by ethel cain
- the next chapter i'm going to publish is the only chapter i genuinely cried writing and rereading
i'll put more in the twitter comments if i think of any!