Anonymous · 6d
writing my first johnten and why did nobody tell me I would be going through the five stages of grief. i’m the idiot for trying to write a fic that was both canon compliant and happy at the same time but holy fuck if this isn’t the most depressing shit i’ve ever written. like i’m crying and throwing up at every scene. the thing is the fic isn’t even that sad compared to other johnten fics i’ve read (because we are actually the most miserable fandom of all time) but I just want them to be happy and together and that seems impossible in my story so i’m coping all over again. the goal was a happy ending but now it’s heading towards bittersweet and even though it’s literally my story there’s nothing I can do it had to be this way because I want the fic to feel realistic. this is definitely going to be the last canon compliant fic i’m writing for a while lol. in my next fic they’ll be fairies or some shit idk ANYTHING BUT THIS. i’ve read all your fics and they’re 10s across the board like wow im literally speechless after each one but im curious what your experience writing fics that are set in the real world is like? like compared to writing fics set in different universes? which do you prefer and how do you get inspiration for creating new worlds? also I saw that snippet of gotde pt. 2 and i’m so sat like I literally screamed. I just know we are going to be fed good.
BABYYY that's the universal experience i'm afraid! you're doing everything right, they're just them! your brain knows they're too difficult to let you a spin a happy story so it's just correctly recognizing the patterns and building a more realistic scenario dkjdsds
thank you for your kind words about my fic! i get you about not wanting to write canon comp, i'm kind of the same. too damaging for my psyche and too restrictive in terms of how cozy and indulgent i want to make it (and i do wanna make it indulgent most of the time). for a while (until maybe like 2021) i actually felt icky about writing about them irl cause it felt intrusive and also too restrictive for me. then i got over the icky part somehow but the restrictiveness stayed. i don't think i'll ever want to write a longer canon-comp work.
about the inspo for new worlds - i just steal honestly. like i read somebody else's fic and i think wow that setting/situation/etc is hot, i wonder how i could make it even more torturous dskjds or like if two characters on tv/in a movie have great chemistry, i'm like ok now this but with johnten. that's basically it.
thank you for being hyped for gotde2 🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺 it's going slow but i'm determined to finish it!
