Anonymous · 1mo
otornim, what if the person who left you suddenly comes back? tapos nag-aact siyang parang walang nangyari—na parang hindi ka niya iniwan. na wala lang 'yon. na parang hindi ka umiyak gabi-gabi dahil sa kanya, tinanong ang sarili mo kung may kulang ka, at ginagaslight mo pa sarili mong okay ka pa kahit obvious na hindi. then out of nowhere, nag-sorry siya sayo, pero walang paliwanag. aalang dahilan. walang closure. walang kahit ano.
It's like he never went through what you did when he left—yung pangungulila, yung pag-replay ng happy memories sa utak mo, yung pag-iyak sa unan, yung umaasa ka na babalik siya para man lang magpaliwanag. It's like he didn’t feel any of it. parang wala lang sa kanya lahat. parang one ‘sorry’ can fix the chaos he left behind.
so what would you do? would you face him and finally talk? or pabayaan na lang 'yon, kahit alam mong ilang beses mong hiningi sa langit na bumalik siya at sabihin kung bakit—para makalaya ka na, para matapos na ‘yung kwentong siya rin naman ang sumira?
(experience ko 'to pero i want to know your opinion 😅)
for me, i think no closure is still closure. i can listen if they want to explain their side, pero kung sorry lang ang sasabihin nila, i will not ask for the explanation. as much as i want to know, i won't bother sitting still and getting stuck on a torn page anymore. the most i'll do is be civil kung bumalik s'ya. ikaw na rin ang nagsabi, parang wala lang sa kanya lahat, and that's enough closure for me. it's not easy to forgive and forget—and we don't have to do that, actually.
i'm okay with giving second chances, i can be as understanding as i can, but that will depend on who or what we're giving the chance to. i'm not the one in your shoes so i can't really feel the emotions and pain you have right now—it's up to you to weigh out your feelings and act on it.
you're right; one sorry cannot fix everything. kung sisirain niya ang kwento niyo, iiwan kang nagsusulat mag-isa, tapos babalik na parang wala lang—baka po nasa maling kwento ka. o kaya siguro matagal nang tapos ang kwento, hindi mo lang napansin kasi nandiyan ka parin sa huli nitong pahina.
(these are just my thoughts! 😅 hindi ko po alam ang buong pinagdadaanan mo, but i'm sorry that happened to you.)
