hello! it's my first ongoing work, yes!! i was very unsure of whether to submit an unfinished fic (it was for the etol fest). i was 4k into it and in an entirely different mental place. i started writing it because i wanted to deal with my own feelings of betrayal and nostalgia through writing. this decision itself turned out to be a tricky one, because when you try to put too much of yourself in the story, it stops functioning. i realized this early enough, that i was cutting its wings, killing its freedom. my perspective changed, i kind of set the story free of myself and let the characters become real people that i have just met and not inspired by someone i already knew. it was a game-changer for me and a very interesting lesson, too. i'm saying all this because now that watercolor eyes is almost finished, i feel so grateful that i didn't give up on it. i also feel all over the place because i still have a chapter and an epilogue to write and that's 15-20k so i'm anxiously excited. but i'm also very curious about my readers' reactions when the fic's completed. i'm very very thankful to everyone who reads it as it gets uploaded as well as to the people i know are patiently waiting for me to finish it in order to submerge into it. ⁠♡

what's next? jocks! or: my jock fest fic. it's going to be my reward after all this drama. there will be lots of pining! i'm not saying anything else hehe~

thank you for asking me these questions! ⁠♡ these days i read and i write a lot, and i'm living the happiest version of myself. hope you have a nice day/night! ⁠♡