being a digital shapeshifter leads to a lot of that. was kinda fun trying out a vrchat avatar that had a built-in hud and seeing something similar to what i "see without seeing". phantom sensations from different forms.

it's still something i struggle to talk about openly. another case of "i felt like this for a long time, but did not have anyone to help me connect the dots". self-teaching is difficult when you do not know what you need to learn.