writing the draft. be that on paper or ellipsus. because my main issue is sitting down to actually do it and also to go in and edit because my eyes cross fkdhjg but if i get myself to sit down, i can get an idea down quickly. im not a slow writer at all, just a very procrastination prone one fgjkhds
also world building. thats my shit. i build way too big worlds and i love putting if factions with clashing beliefs, be that religions or other wild shit. i like putting in quietly brutal things, like institutions that only reveal their cruelty when you look 3 layers deeper than the surface. which is something that will absolutely come up in space au 2.0, the question is if i convey it successfully ahahaha

ohohohohohoho oh baby. okay. so.

jeongchan. where do i even start? i have a weak spot for them wanting each other carnally but chan being very "i cant because hes our maknae/its within the band/he wouldnt want me/im probably creepy" about it all while jeongin vibrates in the corner with barely controlled hunger for chan. or jeongin manipulating things until chan is essentially pudding in his (beautiful) hands.

i have so many wips that i need to finish and now with jeongins hair being white, i really wanna finish my witcher au. its jeongchanlix and both chan and jeongin are witchers from different schools and chan made jeongin promise to spend winter in kaer morhen with him. thats the base premise of it and jeongin keep wondering how the fuck he landed in this.. thing with chan. and with felix. because he learned that he can trust no one and struggles to see what chan sees in him. or why he keeps going soft around him when they end up working together or running into each other.

so lots of obliviousness or denial and sheer raw sexual desire thats barely contained. im happy when thats there jsdfgh

fav track of the album... hard to decide because its no skip for me. but i think its after you. and this&that on second place actually. but the whole this is so fucking good, i truly didnt expect it to be this damned good.

oh man, youd be surprised, but the first time i touched fire like that was when i was 12 or 13. i was part of a circus project in school, i guess you could compare it to theater kid shit, just with circus performances. from then it just took off. ive always been a little too much into fire stuff, like burning paper and such, so it was probably a good thing i got that outlet lmao

i had a break in doing it over my 20s. i didnt have the connections anymore, i was not in a great place in general... and then my friends from a dancing group got me back into it. now we meet up at a yearly convention, where mostly professionals go. at this point id call myself a semi-professional fire performer, mainly because i dont earn the bulk of my income with it, but i do get paid when i perform somewhere.

tldr: someone handed me a burning staff when i was 13 and i got hooked immediately lmao

man, those are hard questions. i think im rotating favorites in it.
all eight have massive baggage and havent been traveling together for as long as it seems in the first two chapters, or even in the one im writing right now. they kind of come in pairs with a partly shared story and then intermingle in a variety of ways.
i do have a specific soft spot for felix and jeongin though, to no ones surprise.
felix, the weird sydnari, that has been weird all his life. him being all kinds of genderfuckery, even for an alien species, means a lot to me. hes got massive internal gender issues that come from being male despite hatching from a small batch of eggs that was not supposed to have drones. and hes not really a drone, hes kind of both a warrior drone and a queen. in human terms that would make him intersex, because his body is somewhere between both. in a society that essentially works like a bee hive or an ant colony (kind of both), its difficult to be in between. still, he became his queens companion later. her blade. her protector. and then politics and violence happened and he lost it all... so of course an intruder like jeongin, who just showed up and is taking into what he considers his new hive is making him suspicious and pissy. thats why he calls yennie a parasite.
jeongin meanwhile is just a miserable little dude. raised in an orphanage with very little memory of what came before, taught a beliefsystem that tells him hes undeserving and thus neds to be grateful for all hes given, because he was unwanted by his kin. he was essentially raised as a barely tolerated pet. there is so much to uncover about him and where he actually came from. there are distant connections to seungmins former group/family and not so distant ones to hyunjin, that hyunjin still has to realize are there.
i dont think i have a favorite line yet, but felix threatening to throw jeongin into the trash compactor and chan telling him off with annoyed fondness might be up there in situations ive written up until now.

Pepper <3 oh boy, thats hard to answer.
i want to do so many things... chief among them, i want to make illustrations worth printing. cool and epic looking shit, specifically of the Space AU 2.0 (which i need to fucking update oh god) but also for the RPs im writing. i wish i could draw things as hot or as heart breaking as they are in my mind.
for example, in the fantasy Au where felix is an elf, chan is a werewolf, jeongin is a dragon ect, i want to capture chans endless devotion for jeongin and felix somehow. i dont know how i would even do that, because its so deep and so profound... but i still want to try.
or for the wasteland au, somehow capture jeongins connection to the fire, his rage, his need to be free and just... a person.
blunt fangs, where chan and jeongin had their canines pulled... or them fucking with felix, because i kinda wanna draw his specific flavor of omegaverse transness, but i havent dared yet.
istg my head is so full of ideas and stories and i only have two hands and executive dysfuntion TT^TT