Thank you... I do think it's good to be true to oneself, and I will continue to encourage people to enjoy what they like in spite of the world.

I'm in a weird position, I feel, in that I don't know what "true to my feelings" means.. Like, I know I'm a freak and I accept it, but at times it feels performative.. I don't really feel like I'm much of anything sometimes and just try to cling onto something unique I guess.

For brief freak history of the nyan- I was raised to be pure and wholesome and I wanted to be as pure and seiso as possible (and I still have elements of that- I don't like swearing, for example, and I have a weird phobia of graphic sexual things), but I also had a lot of accidents as a kid and in middle school it became a complex helping drive me to suicidal urges and then it became a kink/coping mechanism somehow. The diaper stuff extended from that- middle school nyans really wanted diapers for protection, but they were also ashamed and felt that being caught wearing diapers might be worse than caught having a single accident, so they never told anyone (and then in high school scary ABDL online things made them avoid diaper stuff for awhile but now nyans have accepted them as cute and a good way to portray nyans as pitiful freaks that pee themselves a lot without having to draw them peeing themselves all the time)

Basically I hid my kink for the longest time but now people convince me to be open and sometimes I wonder if I'm being open to be true to myself or just to please/inspire people around me.. I don't dislike it, but I wish I was something "more" still. I wish I could create a variety of stories and scenarios that focus on multiple aspects, but lately these days my head is just empty, so I just latch onto the easy thing... Ah well, it is what it is~

I just worry that I overwhelm those that don't want to see it I guess, with something that probably doesn't need to be shared so often...