oh wow thank u for such a fun question!! i find it sooo hard to pinpoint just one thing about them because everything about them keeps me coming back for more but after sleeping on it i have to say it's the yearning. like. truly. it's so evident in all that they do and sometimes i just look at them and feel such a visceral urge to just Know because u can't tell me there's nothing there! u just can't! no one can!!! it's so painfully there!!! real and raw!!! (whenever i hear the "i'm so afraid it's written all over my face they might see it plainly in the lingering gaze" part in loud by nmixx i immediately think of them. it's so them it hurts.)

i could go on a whole coke rant about ncej and their never ending yearnism which i basically do everytime i write a fic LOL it's just so good. and addictive. and unfair. and