Elias.

Dearest hunn! · 1mo

And honestly, Elias, what did you think pushed me to this point? It was never about you not replying to my messages I wasn’t angry about that. I truly believed we were moving toward something real, something more serious. But in the end, it’s clear we never were… right?

Yk what, it's fucking useless to replied all of your questions. Kalo emang saya ga mikir buat lebih serius, why would i fucking replied you? Why would i fucking respond you until now? Ga pernah sesuai tindakan nya sama kelakuan. All i felt was fell in love and confused all the time ngikutin mau apa yang saya aja lagi-lagi bingung mau nya gimana. I said i fucking fall in love and you still not understand it. Now shut the fuck up. You were mad because i talked harshly and disrespected you and i did said apologize, mau nya apalagi? Saya sujud? Do i ever make you begging so you can talk to me again?

Elias. · 1mo

Dearest hunn! · 1mo

What I did yesterday was because I was afraid of making you wait, and I was scared that I wouldn’t be able to give you what you deserve. But you didn’t see that, Elias. You said all that when I was asking you calmly and respectfully

And I did wait. Which part i didn't reply your message, terus ditinggal sebentar aja jadi bikin marah? Saya ga bisa dituntut ini itu padahal bukan siapa-siapa dan saya sudah bilang sebab nya karena apa, all you did was asking again and again. You did disrespect me by not think about me? Mikir kalo sedikit kalo saya ga akan kaya gini kalau ga ada penyebab nya. "Never the one who walked away"? You're the one who fucking push me away, you must be joking. Ya ya ya. Whatever you want. I can do things what i want, bukan karena disuruh.

Elias. · 1mo

Dearest hunn! · 1mo

You never truly loved me… not in the way I hoped, not in the way I kept holding on to. And maybe that’s what hurts the most realizing that all this time, I was the only one who felt it that deeply.

You can't define and tell me how I should feel, we barely know each other and you should fucking act like you know everything about me. Kamu yang bikin saya buang-buang waktu, dari awal yang ga konsisten about what they did bukan saya. I never hid what i felt and always been straightforward. Don't act like I'm the bad guy here, bukan saya yang ga ngertiin. Bukan saya juga yang keliatan main-main, serious on other day dan ga percaya sama saya di kemudian hari. At least be a fucking man of words, not some full of bulshit i have enough. You always had been selfish.

Elias. · 1mo

Dearest hunn! · 2mo

Elias saya ingin bicara sama kamu

Ain't gonna waste my time anymore just for be a fucking sad soul, you had your chance to be listened. Now you're the one who should understand, i HAVE enough. Buat apa? Buat bikin saya ngerasa ga pantas buat siapa-siapa? Buat saya ngerasa kalau saya bisa dimainin? Buat saya ngerasa kalau memang itu kemauan saya? The thing i deserve is a peaceful life without anyone like you.