baddies · 7d
hiii my cutebean jilliii <3 i kinda wanna vent for a sec with u bcs i love to read ur alterspring heheh and pleaseee just reply here okii don’t share it on ur acc hihi thanku mwa <3 sooo.. still haven’t fully moved on from my ex croomf… i liked her because she was literally the oomf i was closest to. we’d talk every single day, always checking in on each other, lowkey flirting sometimes, and i think she’s also the person who made me realize i was actually into girls ;-) but sadly things happened and we kinda kept going through this cycle of getting close, drifting apart, then getting close again… (not in a bad way though!!). now we’re nowhere near as close as we used to be.. we barely interact anymore especially in dm TT it’s so weird considering we used to talk all the time :<< i guess it’s probably because she has a girlfriend now.. yea :D and now i’m so conflicted… ive been trying to move on for months but i keep relapsing LMAO T__T i genuinely can’t tell if i still like her or if i just miss the comfort i had with my first (cr)oomf who was that close to me…… huft part of me really wants to confess and its not because i want her to like me back or anything, but just to get it off my chest!!! but i know that’s not something i should do since she’s in a relationship now.. and i’d never want to mess with that
NOOOO COME HERE ☹️🫂 thank u sm for trusting me enough to tell me this <3 and dont worry tho this ones staying here hehe.
honestly... i think its okay if u cant tell whether you still like her or if u just miss what u both had. i mean…when someone was such a huge part of ur everyday life, its really hard to separate ur feelings for them from the comfort and routine they gave u right?
from what u wrote…i think u already know the answer abt confessing…wanting to get it off ur chest is completely understandable. but since shes in a relationship now, keeping that boundary is probably the kindest thing you can do for both of u. :( it doesnt make ur feelings any less real okieee it just means ur choosing to respect where shes at
i hope one day u will meet someone who give u that same comfort without making u question where you stand okie. ur first croomf will probably always have a special place in ur heart because she was ur first in so many ways and thats okay!!! but that doesnt mean shes the last person u will ever feel that close to
sending u the biggest hug 🫂 i really hope ur heart gets to rest soon. take care of urself okie? ily!! (i think i know who u r kekeke) 🥹🤍
