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Anonymous · 6d
just finished the first chapter of mother of pearl my first exposure to a kengtak fic btw im hooked !!!!!! kei writing in his journal abt his successes and things on his mind abt tak i love that detail smmm
YIPPEEEEEEE thanks for reading!!!!!! i hope u continue to enjoy it yahoo
Anonymous · 15d
Hi! I don't think I can even call myself a lune yet but I stumbled across your work and wow. Your writing!! So delicious and delightful. Also I love the discussion questions because it makes me think more about what I just read (I have a really bad habit of not thinking and just consuming) although I haven't commented or anything but I spend at least 15 minutes looking at the comments and digesting what just happened haha. Seriously thank you for writing and making me think more about the kpop industry. <3
thank you! i'm glad you're enjoying reading it.
Anonymous · 16d
that being said,,,, i saw in your replies down there (sorry i've been reading, and learning a lot at that) that you wrote a little kuma sometime somewhere and i'll just say i would give everything i have to read some kuma from you, your words, and your perspective<3
yes! there's a little kuma in the latest chapter i posted and i don't know if they'll come back around but i really enjoyed writing them. i don't want to spoil you on the specifics of their dynamic but it's been fun to simmer them and develop a complex flavor.
Anonymous · 16d
i'm honestly not sure why i'm here or what i intend to say but i'm 2 chapters into mop after seeing some... discourse and i just want to say you are a raw, honest, brilliant mind and it's just a normal thursday afternoon but i just don't think i'll ever be the same person again. i feel a little shaken and stupid even because i used to be so certain and feel so arrogant but i knew nothing. you just shattered my certitudes on morality and i needed it more than anything
yoooooooooooooooooo CRAZY message to receive, i rly thought i had a bunch of hate in my inbox but this is so much better, thank you! tbh i wish people who are so against the concept of the fic would give it a try, i really am just trying to write through the same things they're thinking about. i do think if ktaki really fucked, it would be bad! the difference is just that i want to explore that badness and unwrap it and try to understand it instead of flinching away from it.
i think we are all doing something amoral when we engage in rpf, when we rps, when we enjoy kpop in general, when we enjoy this group specifically. tying your morality to the media you enjoy is a really hard way to develop a sense of self. after all, there's no stakes on here. no one is going to live or die based off of anything we do on kpop twitter. it's better to develop your real life morals outside of kpop twitter and then come back to this space knowing yourself to be the person you think you are. it makes it easier to engage with things slightly outside your boundaries and understand them.
i also wanna say it's not your fault, we're all dealing with the cop in our heads, we all want to prove we're good people in a world where it's so easy to be accused of not being a good person for totally arbitrary reasons. like, i am too. so i'm glad you decided to read my fic and had your mind changed. that's what i was trying to do when i started writing it.
Anonymous · 18d
very perfunctory thing I wanted to bring up, but afaik men will routinely use ‘omae’ as a pronoun to any male they are close to, within a similar age of them. kimi is also a regularly used pronoun between men and close opposite-sex friends, and I see anata is used very variably but often reserved for formal situations and opposite-sex interactions. there could’ve been other parts of kei that were rude on iland, but I think his language was totally acceptable given the context of the show + his age
ok PURR thank you for this, he was still kinda being an asshole but at least he wasn't being a huge asshole.
Anonymous · 24d
Recién terminé de leer mother of pearl y me está gustando demasiado. Me encanta responder las preguntas de los cuestionarios, pero me da un poco de vergüenza comentar, jeje. Estoy escribiendo algo con conflictos éticos similares y me gustaría saber un poco sobre tu proceso, sobre todo con Yudai.
Te agradezco mucho que continúes con este fic; de verdad, es muy bueno. ♡
wow muchisimas gracias amix!! no quiero darte miedo de mis preguntas, solamente existe para empezar la discusión :) quiero leer tu fic, si te quieres mostrarme. dime tus preguntas de mi fic y el proceso si tienes algo. me gustaré responderlo!
Anonymous · 1mo
Ohhh they gonna put you on the jumbotron again lmaooo ur valid for ur take tho, it’s about time we had more mean people in rpf fic!! #represent
lmfaooo this is why i don't tweet my controversial anons... i agree with u i think it's way better for fics to have rounded characters
Anonymous · 1mo
I really love your writing, it feels like I found a rare gem! Which is why i was quite surprised to see a few of your replies regarding yudai under the fic…you know he was evil edited to appear that way on iland right?? I don’t think he changed at all either or needed to in any way.
oh yeah good question. it's of course up to each person's interpretation. i watched iland like three weeks ago and while i think you can attribute a lot of it to the editing (like for example times when they'd cut to his face and he's look unhappy while niki was doing something), they couldn't change what he was saying or the context of it. for example, it's already kinda rude to use "anata" (you) when you're talking to someone in japanese, but yudai uses "omae" (you, inf) with niki which is really rude. it's normal for varsity athletes to talk down to and be hard on their juniors (tbf this is the same in any country imo) which contextualizes things since at this point yudai has a lot of dance/singing training but not a lot of on-camera/personality training.
i think like everyone else he was a victim of the stanford-prisonesque experience of the show so i don't think he needs to be Held Accountable for how he acted under immense pressure... but i think a genuinely nasty side of him came out and that wasn't from the editing. he is a complex guy. i think it's ok to admit that he was nasty on tv when he was 22 and probably either isn't now or is better at hiding it. i don't really feel like i need to defend that part of his past since he doesn't pay my bills or massage my back. if i thought he wasn't capable of cruelty i wouldn't be writing this fic!
Anonymous · 1mo
do you like gary indiana
i haven't read him, should i?
Anonymous · 1mo
are there any songs/albums that you associate with mother of pearl? or just what you listen to while writing, if anything
i have a playlist! but i don't know how to share it
but albumswise, two come to mind:
like someone i know - it's a compilation of margot guryan covers by subpop artists but there's so many songs on there that i listened to when i was first writing mop
masterpiece - big thief has so many bad relationship/mommy issues/transforming yourself songs that it all feels relevant.
i'll screenshot the rest of my playlist and add it to this post on twt. i keep finding new things to add to it all the time