omg i admittedly didnt listen to lush that much so i didnt realize mitski has a longterm relationship with pearls ooooomg.... thank u for the rec and im glad u liked the playlist.

we can talk about the ending if you want to get spoiled! you can come dm me about it. it might change a little from whatever i tell you but it will end a very specific way i've envisioned for a while.

i've been having taki call kei hyung to reaffirm and reestablish their dynamic and kind of bring him back to himself, his role, his responsibilities. i think taki does it without thinking but its like hes asking kei to be the older one again and to manage his emotions better. thats why i keep using it. in real life taki only calls kei Kei-hyung but he rarely calls him "hyung" alone, and it's pretty much exclusively when they're doing content in korean. i think its funny that kei-hyung got exported but "hyung" itself did not--a real product of their relationship mostly taking place in korea in the beginning. i think thats also why they're so touchy with each other in a way that, tbh, a lot of the other japanese members are not. like, honestly, &team are not a super touchy group naturally, but og4 are definitely the touchiest (besides yuma, who is groping people which is sort of a whole nother thing. lol) and get touched the most. imo i lived in korea and i've visited japan and korean culture definitely is more touchy and affectionate especially between men. so its interesting to think about og4 in that environment, learning that touch was an important part of their relationship marketing vs the other five who spent some time in korea but mostly just for the show and definitely are not as touchy as a fivesome. like i think all the touchiest couples in &team include an og4 member. wow thats a huge ramble. anyway its cool to think about how korean culture and social behavior effects the group even though all of them are not korean except euijoo (and he's so repressed).

LOL this is so funny. i also really like shipping ktaki and imagining a world where they're happy and together. there's been a lot of instances even in writing this fic where i went back and forth on if i want them to end up together because they can be sooooo sweet to each other. but like you i just don't think it would be that easy for them. i think they could set each other off.

i think that day is coming. ktaki is getting super popular like in the lune library stats it's almost in the top ten and the hidden gems fest prompts had a lotttt of ktaki. i think people want to read it, but no one wants to write it. fair. it's become scary to write it. but i wish there was more!

yoooooooooooooooooo CRAZY message to receive, i rly thought i had a bunch of hate in my inbox but this is so much better, thank you! tbh i wish people who are so against the concept of the fic would give it a try, i really am just trying to write through the same things they're thinking about. i do think if ktaki really fucked, it would be bad! the difference is just that i want to explore that badness and unwrap it and try to understand it instead of flinching away from it.

i think we are all doing something amoral when we engage in rpf, when we rps, when we enjoy kpop in general, when we enjoy this group specifically. tying your morality to the media you enjoy is a really hard way to develop a sense of self. after all, there's no stakes on here. no one is going to live or die based off of anything we do on kpop twitter. it's better to develop your real life morals outside of kpop twitter and then come back to this space knowing yourself to be the person you think you are. it makes it easier to engage with things slightly outside your boundaries and understand them.

i also wanna say it's not your fault, we're all dealing with the cop in our heads, we all want to prove we're good people in a world where it's so easy to be accused of not being a good person for totally arbitrary reasons. like, i am too. so i'm glad you decided to read my fic and had your mind changed. that's what i was trying to do when i started writing it.