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Anonymous · 8d
heyy i love your fic so much. genuinely its so beautiful and i can’t wait for more chapters. i’ve never read ktaki before (or really any &team specific fics) but the way you write them is just incredible. i can’t tell you how disappointed i was when i checked your account and saw there wasn’t any other works :( anyway just thought i’d stop by !
omg thank you so much for loving my fic! i'm glad you gave it a chance. i have written other fics under other ao3 usernames before but any time i switch fandoms i make a new account lol
Anonymous · 8d
I'm the anon who talks about the mirror scene. Anyway, I also want to say how great it was that you put Yudai's phone call with Taki's mom in perspective: that he would sell his soul to kick off the domino of his debut. Going a bit meta, I think its an interesting look at idols' psyche; I am sure there is real love between idol groups, but it prob gets tangled in their own ambition and desire to succeed. Not saying the love isnt real; it very much is but there is this unique circumstances underneath
he would 200000% cosign the lowkey abandonment of a teenager in exchange for his own career and i love that for us narratively. there is absolutely real love in a lot of these groups in the same way there's love between like... people who work in a kitchen together or people who are on the same sports team. you're forced to at bare minimum work well with each other or else everything gets fucked. but love beyond that is a choice that these idols have to make, so it's really fun to look at the circumstances that make them want to choose that love. i do think when a child is in your care unless you're EVIL you're going to end up loving them to some degree, even if you express it badly. i think for sure yudai loves taki and doted on him predebut, but its also so fucked he had to do that at all. it almost? negates it for me. but not entirely :)
Anonymous · 8d
Hey i really love your fic. And i also like how dimensional you make K is, like there is a splash of introspection (maybe a little guilt also?) over his relationship with Taki. and the scene where he looks at himself in the mirror; I mean, I always get a feeling K is someone who thinks about himself and his relation to the world, he is earnest and brave to chase what he wants, andthe scene fits him perfectly: confronting his desire head on
oh yeah he's feeling a lot of introspection and i think the guilt is subconscious right now because he hasn't been held up to the mirror wrt his own actions yet. i don't think he really understands the line he crossed fully. like he's guilty but he's soooo enmeshed with taki and in the very middle of the relationship.
i think your interpretation of the mirror scene is so interesting! i think i wrote it with a completely different aim in mind--to show yudai is constantly being confronted with himself and the ways that he has changed and how--like fucking taki--the vanity is a coping method to sort through how he feels about being an idol, and everything he had to give up and change to do that. but i like your interpretation too! thats why i like discussing this stuff, there's no right answer even tho i wrote it. your interpretation is fascinating and unique too!
Anonymous · 9d
what are your pronouns?
he/they/she if you're gay about it
Anonymous · 16d
hey! i really like how you’ve been pulling this off so far. it’s revolting, it’s saddening and i think it shouldn’t be written in any other way. i also really like the details you’ve been adding to the narrative, like the journal thing, the whole post-botox scene and of course, the oyster. the imagery is awesome! really looking forward to your updates every monday! caught myself wishing that we live in different time zones so that i can read it sooner. really, thank you for the fic!
thank you so much! revolting and saddening is what im going for :) more accurately i feel like everyone has been talking so much about ktaki being so wrong and bad but using that as justification for why it shouldn't be explored in fiction. i agree with them that it would be wrong and bad and i'm super interested in how it would play out if it ever happened. i don't think it happened obviously, this is fictional, but idk. i was more curious than disgusted, yknow? we can denounce it all we want but what are we actually thinking would happen? so i had fun getting into kei's head and figuring that out.
thanks for sending this message! i was worried no one would read this fic outside of my small circle of friends. i hope you like the next update!