Forgive me for the relatively lacking reply that will follow this, i'm exhausted currently. However, I don't believe suicide is the answer to your problems. I suffer with chronic pain as well, and it does feel very miserable.. I can't make your pains go away entirely, but I can offer you a space to vent about it if you need it. The doctors tending to you don't deserve their licenses either; ignoring a patient is one of the things you swear against as a doctor. Shameful, really. I hope you find a medical professional that will take you seriously for once, as I know how terrible that can feel. Im sorry.