oh, it was a long long long time ago. 2014? 2013? my first hq fic was the first character death in the ao3 tag or something. so you can see why i’d really rather pretend the fics never existed 😭 they’re the equivalent of my chuunibyou years to me… on top of all the layers of fandom lore there, too. the state of the sports animanga spaces before the hq anime aired… just not a vibe at all. it’s why i deleted everything, fics included, and was an online hermit until jjk ;;

i do see people still talk about them sometimes, though! so copies are indeed out there. it’s funny bc i remade in 2016, but a yoi reader at some point was like… by any chance, you’re not [my first ao3 pseud], are you? and i had to be like ehe [fades out]

i won’t prevent anyone from getting access to my dark history, to be clear! it’s just probably way harder now, is the thing, and i promise you the effort of looking is not worth those fics. it makes me sick to even think about someone having to endure them. i just entered high school when i wrote them, mind you. i was in my lispector and dostoevsky era! chuunibyou years! save yourself!