I have the curse to be vers but I'm rich as a switch. I'll swear up and down that I want a woman to stick her fingers in my neck and toy with the wiring, pinch the cables that hold my head up, and hook her claws into the collar my throat connects to -- and I will also immediately want to grab her by the nape of the neck and growl about how I love when my kitten sharpens her claws on me and push her back so I can mount her lap.

The mind races in these scenarios cause I feel like I'm happy going any which way my partner likes and I'm bad an intuiting that. I feel like I'd need a code. Cause say I press up on her lap and push her back, if she then reaches around and really sinks her claws in me or rolls me over, I'll just want to press more or leg lock her or lay hands on her waist in return -- but, uh, if she wants to just let it rock on me I will be a good girl and let her push me back by the nose.

I guess it really does hinge on my mood because I could just let my shoulders slack so my machinery isn't a pinching hazard. Push my chest out, turn my head so I'm gazing from the corner of my eyes, breathe heavily as I gaze at her doing as she pleases. If that other hand isn't already in play, I'm bringing it over to me and putting it somewhere, anywhere. The right woman can use my body however she sees fit but I want her to wear it out as much as she can.

I guess in both of these scenarios I'm the bottom, but first engagement kind of dictates that to me rather than toggling mid-encounter -- not that I'm not keen on that as well.

Once again this is a case where I will state I'm content with being "Service". I respond to other's who lean Bottom or Sub and fulfill their wants because I just enjoy playing the game, so to speak. But if I'm doing the driving, the programming will run out and the spirit will take me and make a little monster out of me. I enjoy the idea of being an aggressive dominant, though I get a little twisted because I think people prefer a bit more cruelty and I'm a creature of love along with my evil ambitions.

Not that I won't yank the collar so hard you'll be looking back and making upside-down eye contact while I'm handling you from behind.

I forgot being the dom/top is really easy because its just asking "What fucked up thing would I want done to me?" and then doing it to someone else.