Hi there! Honestly, I was very shocked and flabbergasted about the whole thing. When I opened the weverse notification.. I legit thought it was going to be about idk schedules or maybe re-scheduling bc of health and things like that

Honestly it's been difficult to fully process it. Even now days later, it still feels quite surreal

I am definitely sungwon biased, but Hee is very important to me and of course to the team. If I was shocked, then I can't even imagine how the members feel

Seeing them so tired, seeing them after that fancall.. it was very tough. I had never seen them like that and it was hitting hard

I am still definitely with sunghoon and wonie because I care about them a lot. The 6 of them deserve to be cared for and protected. Heeseung does too.

Above all, I would like clarity about the situation because this is being handled in such an unprofessional way by this company. My engene heart wants him back of course, wants the 7 of them together, wants to rewind time, wants our normal days.

But I would also truly love clarity because in all my years in k-pop, I had never seen this type of procedure. If it was his decision.. I would understand, but all these actions that are taking place seem to point otherwise. Or that there was no proper coordination about it.

I think all this is so surreal I haven't been able to break down about it (alongside having some things going on in life) but I hope also the fact that I haven't broken down and despaired.. I hope it means that something can change later, you know like that sensation where "if you haven't processed it then maybe it's not the final outcome"

I hope for enhypen to be 7 again. Truly because they as a group helped me through so many things and kept me going when I needed them the most. So right now I'm trying for answers, clarity and hoping the situation reverses while also trying to protect the 6 who also need us. And then I guess, depends on how things unfold, ideally I want him back.. I hope things go back to normal.

But I'm also staying with HoonWon. And if it comes down to the worst case scenario (I hope not) then I'll still support the 7 of them in the paths they'd be at

Hello! I apologize for the scare, I haven't deleted them the aus--they are in ao3 but I have them under a hidden collection. I had a bit of an emotional breakdown this past Sunday (things that accumulated throughout the year) and then saw something on twitter and that pushed me to my limit and I deactivated and hid my fics as a whole at that moment. Wasn't truly okay emotionally at the time so it was a bit of a coping/defense mechanism at the time. I have been waiting for things to calm down so that I can take them out of the collection.

I started with the non-sungwon fics first. But they'll be back soon, just need to regulate my emotions and calm down fully first. I am sorry for the inconveniences 😞