hello! first of all, you don't need to apologize, as I'm thankful you trust me by sharing this with me. let me try my best to give you my opinion on this.

the inner conflict you're feeling shows that your heart still holds onto faith and your spiritual belief. I think this happens because your beliefs and feelings aren't aligned—of course, this is a common thing and it's okay to feel this. you still believe that this might not lead to a definite path, but you also feel that this man gives you the love and peace you're looking for.

I guess some love comes into our lives to awaken the love that's been inside us for a long time. the love that grows within us doesn't always mean we have to become one with the people we love. and if you think it's not the one, you can still keep the love without having to walk away as there are many ways to express and keep love. for now, I can only say, maybe try to give yourself a little more time to calm your mind and heart, to think long-term about each choice you make, and to listen to the deep of your heart that knows what's best for you. you have the right to choose whatever brings you lasting peace, and you deserve a certain and peaceful love, too. I hope the universe can soon give you signs to answer your confusion, dear. and I hope you're given the strength to continue your path, whatever choice you decide later! ❤️

I hope my answer helps you a little. if you're still confused and want to express it here, feel free to come here again okay ;D