emmy Β· 6d
ugh I feel bad about how I talked about bg earlier I'm sorry πππππ (like genuinely I'm so sorry if you felt bad about ehat I said) reading the last chapter was an emotional rollercoaster for me, I laughed, almost cried, and screamed, and I was so nervous I didn't even stop to think about his side of the story (also, I was on my period π) I genuinely can see why he does some bad decisions, like, the feat of being like his dad but at the same time the urge of making him proud, only to realize that he was actually doing the same thing his dad did. And of course, it's not all his fault! I was truly disappointed at yj for lying to him about a SON and all of that mess, sometimes ppl think adult relationships are much calmer and stable than those teenage crushes, until you realize is the opposite π¬π¬π¬
pls don't apologize i should be the one saying iβm sorry, i felt like i shouldn't have policed your feelings like that. once i put a story out into the world for ppl to read, how you perceive it and the emotions it triggers aren't in my hands anymore. i think i was just so exhausted and overwhelmed yesterday that i got a little too defensive of my boy!!!!
i also completely understand the emotional rollercoaster, especially when you're dealing with period hormones on top of that stress. itβs such a messy realization for bg trying so hard not to be like his father, only to look in the mirror and see those same patterns staring back. and you are so right; ppl really do romanticize adult relationships as these bastions of stability, but sometimes they are way more volatile. thank you for being so open-minded and for allowing yourself to view the story from all these different angles.
