Small trigger warning for CSA, Incest, etc
hi everyone! i think i will be taking a small break from this platform. i feel like a lot of my bad habits are being encouraged, and it's not anyone's fault but my own. I am an extremely impressionable person, and honestly that's a skill issue given my big ass age. Grown ass man with no thought process of hir own. I feel like I owe some kind of explanation for my actions and my thought process even though I really don't owe anyone that.
I am a victim of CSA, COCSA, Incest, and rape. I attach myself to medias that hold these topics because it distracts myself from my real life trauma and it keeps my mind occupied. I forget what happened to me, even for a short moment, and it makes me think it can never and will never happen to me. I attach myself to harmful labels and I don't care about anyone else, and honestly, that's lame and rude and fucked up. Im sorry to anyone I've hurt or made uncomfortable, even though that really doesn't mean anything.
I have always been like this, and that wasn't a lie, but this time I'm going to fix myself. I won't come back until I'm okay. I feel like this is going to get closed on HARD but that's okay! Im still going to keep the friends I have, because in reality, they aren't really affecting me as this is my own mindset and they didn't force it on me. 💭 I wish you all well.
I'll keep my inbox open for like. 10 minutes? If anyone wants to ask me anything