There was a comic recently shared here and aaa hopefully some1 here will know what I'm talking about & link it cuz I forgot to save it but it's the one where the trans girl is visiting her past selvces throughout the years & they're all kinda weirded out until she gets to her child self who says she's pretty & yeah that's exactly me. I have vivid memories of frequently wishing I was a girl in my single-digit ages to the point where I'd have fantasies of waking up as one... But then I had to live through the 80s & 90s where I & every1 else was gaslit into believing gender changes were foir weird freaks who got scary frightening operations & so my thoughts of being girl had to get tucked away for a while although the tendencies were apparent anyway & my fellow high schoolers harassed me a lot about how I walked & talked like a girl & as far as I know I had to work hard to change all this so I could be accepted and all that. It went on like that for a while until I created a comic called Girly & it accidentally featured me as a girl who was very sad for reasons she couldn't describe. I only played as girls in videogames but it's just because I wanted to look at their butts right? I had a girl account on Gaia Online that I ended up using a lot more than my guy account but it's only because it was fun to play with the dress-up doll right? I first heard the word "transgender" when I was around 30 & I thought it was some fetish thing. Then I made a trans friend in Austin & learned that oh that not what it is at all. Then I made more trans friends & it was cool but there's no way that could be me, I mean I thought about me as a girl but it was only because I was a pervert right? I mean, I had a lot of queer lesbian content in my comics but it was only a fetish obviously. That's what a lot of smug webcomic readers told me anyway. They also told me I couldn't write women & this made me really angry & hostile & depressed for some reason. Eventually I started creating girl characters who were not as accidentally based off me like Anna from You Suck. More friends of mine were coming out, but I couldn't possibly be trans myself but actually what if I was? It was around this time I was drinking all day & hit rock bottom & tried to end my life. After doing a really bad job @ that I pulled myself back together & went cold turkey & looked into therapy. I went to a place in mpls to get diagnosed for ADD. Turns out I don't have that, but I asked them about therapy & it turned out they did have someone taking new patients that specialized in gender care. I felt like that was perfect. On our first session I spilled all my gender thoughts at her & she was like "I knew it". She started me on hrt about a week later. I was 42.
I got GRS back in September. It was neither scary nor frightening.

My favorites tropes are gangbangs, creampies, & shiny, lubed-up people.