i've read your sungtaro latest au, and somehow i can relate to sc. i've lost my spouse for almost 2,5 years ago. and since then everything never be the same again. i've accepted that he's gone but the pain is still there. sometime its coming like a sudden wave you never see coming, wheter when stuck on traffic or when i cooked in the kitchen or anywhere. it feels so painful and heavy and makes me so numb meanwhile the world is still moving when i feel so lost and dunno what to do ...