this is such a hard question bc I feel like my answer changes all the time but these are pretty consistent:
htttoh by drawingspaces (literature) ao3.org/works/22959034
symbiosis by taecheeks ao3.org/works/22992613
code 143 by gvldentae/kyoseul ao3.org/works/53024278
bullet with butterfly wings by locks ao3.org/works/32272039
aeipathy by aeterisks ao3.org/works/83746241
ordinary, corrupt human love by zerorequiem (whenever i return to this the writing blows me away. how to disappear completely also changed my life) ao3.org/works/36272038
earthlysins by goofy army (or any of their fics tbh) ao3.org/works/68544036

any of downpour, honeykooarchive or quietquietquiet's fics too - incredible writing all around that gets me so inspired (vk)