this isn't weird at all, thank you!! 🥹 <3

i don't think i'm naturally a super patient person tbh >> i think the biggest thing that's helped me is realizing that most people's behavior isn't actually about me
if someone is rude, trying to get a reaction, or just unpleasant, i try to be curious before i get defensive. not rlly in a "they're justified" kind of way, but in a "i wonder what could've made them act this way." a lot of people act out because they're insecure, lonely, embarrassed, etc. and understanding that doesn't mean accepting the behavior. it just means you are not the root cause of the negative behavior so in the end it's not really about you, it's about their actions. i'll still mute, ban, or ignore if i need to. it just means i don't let whatever they said/did affect me :3

i also think kindness gets a lot easier when you're comfortable with yourself. i don't feel like i have to prove i'm right or win every interaction because i am confident in my beliefs, morals, and ideas. if someone comes into chat trying to start ship discourse, sexually harass me, or bait me into arguing, they already know what response they want and i just don't give it to them!

more than anything though, i just remember how much i felt lonely and wanted to have someone accept me for who i was. i want other people to feel that way too. if i can be even a small part of making someone's day a little lighter, that's worth way more to me than getting the last word in an argument :p
i adore seeing people happy and excited! it's like a reward for putting myself out there lolol