anonygoose · 2mo
this might be a little weird to receive from a stranger but i read your reflections on 2025 and i think you are an incredibly brave person. (unfortunately) i am in a very similar position- reading what you wrote was as if somebody entered my mind and could see my exact thoughts. maybe someday i'll also find the courage to do the same as you, and the fact that someone made it out like this and found a lot of love from the world on the other side makes me feel really hopeful. i just hope you are happy forever. people like us go through such a specific type of grief that is impossible to translate to other people. we deserve to be happy.
there's nothing weird about this at all, in fact this means the world to me. I never really felt brave when I was going thru it--tired, exhausted to the point of no return? yes, but brave? never. sometimes it takes other people saying it to you over and over again for your brain to start churning out the belief that you can do that. so i do want to say that you do have the courage even if you dont feel it yet, and I know that it really just takes coming to that final decision yourself to actually make the steps to make a change. it's fucking hard, i know, and it feels impossible for so long that it's hard to see anything else but it is really better on the other side. there is so much love and peace meant for you and I hope that you are able to feel it, if not today then at least soon. i didn't realize it until you said it but you're so right about this being a specific, untranslatable grief. there aren't enough words for trying to get over all the life you could have had if things, if people around let you live. but i hope you know you can take your time and when you are ready it's the right time. we deserve to be so, so happy. <3
