Oh thank you anon your so kind. Don't want to dampen the mood but this is my story 🫠🫠🫠
Trigger warning (bare with me)
I never considered (out loud) that I'm cute or pretty hehe. I was bullied during my school days from primary school to highschool so I always thought that I'm ugly as I don't have someone in my corner. And then when I got older I was mocked a lot because of my weight. I'm obese. Still am. I was never comfortable with my body. I tried to lose Weight multiple times but developed ulcer. I got depressed and been medicated but side effects was gaining more weight. In short it made me hate my body more.
So yeah I never call myself cute or pretty because I lived not being called one (except my fam) or I may say I was made believe I am not one and it stuck in my brain till today

It is hard for me to make friends irl coz sometimes of that so I lean towards having friends online. As we don't judge appearance first . You get what I mean? 😅😅

But. But. But. Everyday is a constant battle but I'm now kinder to myself and work not to get the demons in my head