not out of the blue it was ebbing for a while i guess, i really really didn't like the fandom space and for me that's like most of the enjoyment? i can entertain myself with the girlies but then i want to talk about it with people, i want to do rpf, i want to write !!!! i want to be surrounded by creative interesting people and i simply cannot sustain myself in a fandom where i dont have those things and im also not really a person who can be super interested in multiple things at once, all of my eggs are in one basket when im locked in to something, idk im sure i'll come back to tk content in the future and enjoy it again but i'll never stan them like i did