Hi sweetheart. Kitty’s been in and out of chronic illness for weeks now, ah. Was in the hospital a few weeks ago and now I’m sick with something else altogether and have been stuck in bed for about 5 days, aha. Truthfully, kitty is tired. I’ve felt myself distancing from the fandom space for a while, the negativity, the toxicity, just….life has been busy and draining and while twt used to be my safe place, my escape, my happy space—it stopped being any of that a while ago. I’ve met some incredible wonderful puddings, encountered so many talented writers and artists, and even got to break out of my own shell for a little bit with writing, but I have now just developed the worst internet fatigue known to man. The ‘keeping up’ of it all and the maintenance of so much just became more of a job or a burden than a fun community to thrive in. There’s too much information and discourse coming in all the time, ontop of the negative infighting, etc., to the point where I got drained every second I opened the app. I know when I need to step back, when my time has come to exit—I had so much fun with everypudding, and genuinely wish nothing but the best, most loving lives for each of you, but kitty is tapping out. You’ve all been so kind, and I thank you for letting me be the weird little kitty who purred and pawed at your timelines. I wish I didn’t have to deactivate and lose everything but realistically if I don’t, I’ll keep mentally torturing myself by coming back and lately with how sick I’ve been and how mentally worn out I am, and work and life etc—I just can’t. I wish I didn’t burn out so fast, but the weight of the space felt ever looming, and at the end of the day I have to take care of myself. Which is going terribly ahha. That said, I’m happy all the little Minho drabbles are here on alterspring mostly, and my fics will remain up on ao3. Sad I’m losing a lot of posts and drabbles but well, that’s life I guess aha. I’m thankful to everypudding who kept kitty company after all this time, who motivated me and made me want to stick around as long as I did—you’re true jewels, angels, and deserve every good thing life can offer you. The biggest kisses. Losing my cat, being nonstop sick for over a month, and the burnout of life has made me realize I need to step away, for my own sanity. And I urge everypudding to do the same if you’re ever feeling overwhelmed or like you’re starting to resent the space—walk away for a bit. Know yourself. Know that your wellbeing outside of the internet is more important than a post. The right people will understand, and it’s not up to them to decide what’s best for you anyway. Just take care of yourself. Anyway I know you didn’t ask for this long ass response aha, but I figured it was time to at least let someone know. Everyone who’s popped in here and left messages, thank you. I’m sorry I didn’t respond to all of them. Again, been trying to stay away from the sphere. Everything’s just been so heavy. And I didn’t want to give any false hope of me coming back to main. I will miss it. Of course. And I’ll miss so many of you. But I need to spend some time away, because I was falling out of love with Kpop, with the community, and with my own zest for life. It scared me more to know how much it was affecting me and stepping away has done a lot to help already. I had my head shoved in the stayville dirt so long I forgot how nice the sun feels. So with all that said, kitty is giving you all the biggest kisses, wet and sloppy, and purring right into your palms. Thank you for every second of fun, chaos, and joy. Thank you for existing here with me. Thank you for letting me be your kitty. I’ll always be cheering you on, even if you can’t see my little paws, aha.

big, big kisses, puddings.