it’s a song! all of my fics are named after hozier songs, and for chaptered stuff, each chapter is named after a lyric of the song.

when I started other works after unknown, I was going back and forth between continuing naming my works after his songs, but I decided to keep going with it! I like that it makes all my works kind of live in the same realm(?) if that makes sense ? idk if i’ll keep it up forever, but his music really inspires me creatively and I enjoy finding songs and lyrics that can help me curate a vibe/theme that i’m going for in my head.

side note - unknown/nth is a pretty sad song and is far less of a happy ending than unknown the fic is, but the lyrics fit so much of the story that I decided to go with it anyways. I don’t use the songs as strict inspo or anything more like a general vibe in various ways🙂‍↕️

thank you for enjoying my works!! first and most of all, before I talk abt everything else I want to say that I don’t want to seem like i’m not thankful for the dedicated and supportive people that always have my back!!! it means the world to me, truly. I think I just have super bad imposter syndrome and don’t feel like I really belong or fit in this space a lot of the time so i’m overly aware of how my stuff is received. that’s on me😅 again I feel like i’m throwing myself a pity party recently, which is highkey annoying, i’m just trying to be honest with everyone bc I feel like I owe that to the people who may take the time to read my works. but really, I appreciate the people that support me so so so much, and all of you are the biggest reason I keep writing 🫂

I think a lot of people often struggle with leaving comments and i’m the same way tbh, but just know any comment at all is really appreciated and motivating for authors!! a simple “this was a great chapter!” or “this part was my favorite” goes a loooong way. I think people worry about wondering what to say but I promise authors aren’t picky, we love comments of any kind so don’t feel pressured to do anything specific. when I really want to comment on a fic, I always skim through the chapter again after finishing and it helps remind me of things and then I can comment about them! i’ve also been known to write notes to myself while reading and make a list of things I want to remember to comment on 😭 obvs that stuff takes extra time that everyone might not have, but I don’t think people realize how appreciated it is and how if you can take the time to do it, it means a lot 🫂

I know ongoing fics are things people don’t always choose to read. I understand the sentiment, but I also think that more readers need to realize that so many fics go unfinished because of this exact thing !! without continued support and interaction through the writing process, it’s very easy to lose motivation. writing and finding motivation is tough as it is, so when on top of that you also feel like few people really care that much about the work, it’s so easy for motivation to plummet in a heartbeat. I think more people need to show support to authors throughout writing, and that’s how more things get finished!!!

anyways that was kind of a side rant but yeah I think it’s definitely on me for choosing a genre that isn’t popular, especially where my community is really small. even though i’ve been writing for over a year I still feel and am very small and unknown in this space so choosing something that doesn’t appeal to many probably wasnt the best idea when I want to get more readers. yes, I write for myself and that’s why i’m going to continue itws regardless—because I have been really excited about this project for awhile. even if it’s not super well received I want to continue it. but I also write because I want to contribute to this space and give something to others and I can only hope that I can give people some fun and happiness and something to be excited about. readers interacting with works is the most motivating thing, so i’m just wondering if maybe I put out something that attracts more people, they may end up giving itws a chance after that. I know a lot of people stick to authors they know and love so i’m just worried that in this time period of putting out something not a lot of people want to read, i’ll lose the interest of even more potential readers 😭

whilst writing unknown and especially iwcb, I felt like I always had people interacting with my work and asking me questions about it and talking about it and stuff, and i’ve never felt more fulfilled than in those times. like the pure joy i’d get seeing someone talk about reading it or sending me a message talking about a certain part they liked or whatever, it’s so motivating and reassuring. I think after that, i’m just not really used to having a smaller audience and less interaction. I shouldn’t be expecting people to do all this though, thats a privilege not a right. overall, I just hope I can bring things to the table that are enjoyed by many.

sorry this was so long you just spoke abt a lot of things I had thoughts about so I went on a major yapfest😭😭 but really, thank you sm for the support, it means more than you know ❣️❣️❣️

youre very kind thank you ❤️‍🩹 I don’t feel pressured so to say I just….. i’m not sure how to word it without sounding all woe is me even though I already highkey feel like that talking about this to begin with 😭 I just want people to enjoy my stuff and to contribute in ways people are looking for! where itws doesn’t really seem like it’s what people are looking for, im just wondering if something different would excite more people. I have a pretty small community as it is and writing something that doesn’t seem to be what most people are looking for was probably not the best decision on my part as someone who wants to deliver writing that entertains and brings joy to many.

thank you for being so kind tho, I really appreciate the support and I hope you continue enjoying itws❤️‍🩹

you’re very sweet thank you ❤️‍🩹 I just get really caught up in my head especially bc it feels like people aren’t even giving it a chance :/ i’ve had stuff get more hits in 24 hrs than itws has gotten in over a month so it’s just….. bleh it’s hard because i’ve been really excited about this piece for a long time and I still am but it also is very challenging to write and takes a lot more time and effort due to the more thorough plot and all the planning i’ve had to do so it kind of feels like i’m doing all this work for nothing 😭 and I know it’s not nothing that’s dramatic bc all of the people who have talked to me about it have been SO kind and thoughtful!!! and I appreciate all that so so so much.

I just get in my head about this stuff and I want to contribute things to this space that are enjoyed and well received and I don’t think itws is a waste of time, I just don’t know if I should spend ALL my time on it where it doesn’t seem like many are interested. writing and posting multiple things at once is kinda stressful but i’ve been debating doing that so maybe people will be more interested in other stuff ? I dunno, just trying to be transparent through this all bc I don’t feel like i’m as consistent as I used to be so I feel like I owe some sort of explanation to people 😭

anyways thank you again for being so kind and supportive, it means more to me than you know 🫂🫂🫂