no genuinely palagi kong iniisip kung ano ba nangyari sakanya jan like what the hell was going through his head JUST HOLD HIS HAND!!!!!!!! WAS SHUA MAD AT HIM????? WAS HE JUST CHOKING WITH THE WEIGHT OF HIS OWN LONGING????????? DID HE GET LECTURED ABOUT PROPRIETY IN FRONT OF CAMERAS AGAIN????? BECAUSE THE LECTURE DIDN'T STICK ANYWAY (flash-forward to trying to kiss joshua at a fucking UNESCO EVENT) SO WHAT STOPPED HIM IN THIS INSTANCE????????