hiiiiii oomfie
hmm i think for me its the mindbreak stuff. being completely overwhelmed by something so much greater than i am. being utterly dominated in mind, in body, in spirit. im more than just myself, because i belong to something so more. im not my own person, a human capable of thoughts and desires. thats not what i am anymore. im HER person. her floret. my thoughts are what she allows me to think. my desires are what she desires for me.
Even if youre like me and very very eager and willing to be domesticated, that leads into so much more that you had no idea you wanted so badly. thinking you were ready for this, but you could never be ready for an affini..