I’m really done with this Alterspring and rentry stuff, it’s just frankly boring and not of interest to me, I’m probably gonna be leaving cause these people aren’t of interest to me. I’m gonna update my URLs with my updated content and then stop doing all this, I truly have better stuff to do, I’m done with this site in specific.

Why does it matter to you that I don’t refer to myself as trans? I hardly even see myself as a trans man to begin with because I’m intersex. My mom has PCOS and I was exposed to a lot of testosterone in the womb, causing my body to already be very masculinized. The doctors believed I was a normal male until I was born because of my anatomy, I was born with very atypical anatomy to the point they wanted to do surgery on me because a certain part of me was very close to being fully an inch when I was born, but they didn’t. They assigned me “female” at birth and my parents did try to raise me as a girl but failed miserably, I always knew I was a guy

I don’t have a period, I currently have the same amount of testosterone as the average boy my age, and I never really had a female childhood. I only ever hung out with the other boys with the exception of one girl, and since I was always moving most of the time, so no one really caught on. Even when I had to have long hair I would always either put it up in a hat or find a way to style it like the other boys who had long hair.

I never dressed like a girl, and I can’t think of any experiences girls have in their childhoods that I had. My birthname was already gender neutral anyways. My anatomy even now is naturally very male, the way my body is structured too. The only thing holding me back is my height but it dosen’t matter. I don’t have a voice that sounds like a girl, all this especially now. I don’t have a feminine face at all either.

The only things I can really relate to for trans men is I’m short and am forced to use the girl’s locker room in PE since my documents still say “female”, in which the girls are very uncomfortable with. They look so weirded out whenever I come in and I feel bad about it, I feel like some creep.

I also dislike referring to myself as trans because of the fact that trans men are so feminized and people will likely see me as woman-lite. I am a guy. People whenever I call myself trans think I’m putting on my interests to seem more “male” and am hiding myself when I feel that is actual transphobia, to assume someone is faking their interests to seem more like their gender. I was never a girl from the start.