i dont know what more i can do to defend myself . it feels like no matter how much time passes , or how many times i talk things through & resolve them with people , im still only seen for my past mistakes . i genuinely dont understand how i became the center of so much discussion , & im truly exhausted by it . ive apologized multiple times , reflected on what i did , & taken responsibility where i was wrong . i made changes & corrected my behavior , & the situation was resolved - we both moved on . i havent brought it up or repeated it , because i learned from it & did better . whats frustrating is being constantly criticized for something i already acknowledged & fixed . im open to communication , apologizing & fixing my mistakes with others if you are willing to just tell me - my dms on discord are always open , & ive said that multiple times . im always willing to talk things out directly , which is what i have done multiple times in the past & am always willing to do for people with differing perspectives from me . if theres something else ive done wrong that im not aware of , please just tell me so i can understand & continue working on myself . i want to be better , but i cant if i dont know what ive done wrong . im just tired of being defined by things ive already taken responsibility for & moved past .