I struggle with severe mental illness and chronic pain. During a really low point I crashed out and deleted everything because I felt like I was useless and let everyone down, and that I was hurting myself by remaining in these spaces.

On reflection, I realized I needed a bit more moderation and balance in my life but that kink was a part of me and a certain special interest of mine. I didn't feel right leaving the scene and especially all my friends behind, so I returned in this smaller capacity!